Yeah I said X-mas. Deal with it. I hate Christmas with everything I have. This Christmas was almost different. Almost. So very, very close to be almost nice. I get on to wish you all Merry Christmas and I go to vote on my friends Merry a Christmas stuff too. Then I see one of them tagged some people. I see one person and start crying. I curl into a ball and cry Christmas morning. He made both our years great. Until me and him got into a fight over nothing. Like legit the stupidest shit ever. I tried to still be his friend but he was just mean about it. I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't still be upset over it but I am. I miss him, my best friend. I still have Best Friend Day in my calendar and everything. It's funny how one dude and break everything. Yes, I do have someone much, much better now but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt thinking about the other guy. I still haven't told my boyfriend that I still cry about another guy. After this I'm probably gonna cry until morning. Christmas sucks and I can't stand how everyone likes it. It's cold (which I'm allergic to btw), everyone seems to love rubbing it in my face that I can't go out and have fun, my family comes over then I get ignored. The only person that talked to me on Christmas, like ever, is at college and we don't talk anymore (miss you dude. You were like a brother to me and maybe that's why I want an older brother so much), my parents were almost divorced last year (wish they were tbh), my dog died shortly after Christmas, it's the reason I barely get stuff for my birthday, Mary Jane, I don't know the family we go see every Christmas and no one even tries to include me or get to know me there except one person and now he's married so that's gone but it's not that bad cuz I like her (no homo tho), and now this too. So many other reasons I won't name too. Time to go cry some more. Have a happy fucking day and don't let the fact that I'm miserable as all fucking hell ruin your mood. Merry fucking X-Mass you assholes that find joy in this shitty day.
While I do honestly feel that way, not all of you are fucking ASSHOLES. Merry Christmas to you. Bye now gotta go cry.
