I'm in love with a Casanova

Chapter 46

CHAPTER FORTY SIX - HER BOYFRIEND

It's been one week. One week pero parang kahapon lang ito nangyari. Parang kahapon lang natapos ang lahat. Oo, tapos na, wala na and I don't know, I really regret what happened that day. Sana binuksan ko ang isip ko, sana binuksan ko ang puso ko. Para sana, hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito

Akala ko kasi, kapag tinapos ko na ang lahat, magiging okey na, aayos na. But I'm wrong, definitely wrong dahil ang akala ko, ay akala lang pala. Dahil ngayon, mas lalo akong nasasaktan. Mas lalo akong nahihirapan

Paulit ulit akong binabangungot ng mga alaala naming dalawa. But that nightmare was the best. I don't even know If I should call it nightmare dahil ang mga panaginip na yon, sana pwede ko pang balikan, sana pwede ko ulit maranasan at sana, sana pwede nalang akong manatili sa bangungot na itong

But still, I always end up crying realizing that I am living in the reality. Wala ako sa fairytale.Walang prince charming at mas lalong walang happy ending. That's the reality. And I should accept it

And until now, I'm still thinking of what he said. About the kiss. I don't know what he is talking. Siya lang naman ang lalakeng humalik saakin, and I'm still virgin for pete's sake! Sakanya ko lang naman balak isuko ang perlas ng silanganan. Masakit lang na ganon ang tingin niya saakin

I lazily sat up to my bed and prepare for another long day. Isang lingo na akong hindi pumasok, ayaw ko man ulit ngayong pumasok but I need to face them, I need to face him kahit alam kong masasaktan lang ulit ako. Dahil hindi lahat ng oras, kailangan ko siyang taguan.We're not a kid anymore, hindi ito isang laro. But if we're playing, he already won and I already lost. Sa simula palang, talo na ako

"Lexia! Are you sure you're fine?"

"Gosh! We miss you!"

"Are you sure your okay?"

Tango lang ang naging sagot ko sa lahat ng tanong nila. I'm trying my best para iwasan sana sila since this morning but I failed. I know I said I shouldn't hiding pero heto, heto at nag tatago nanaman ako

"S-sige, mauna na ako–"

"Are you trying to avoid us? Me?" malamig na sabi ni Kyle. Isa rin to sa prinoproblema ko, ayaw ko na munang lumapit sakanila, especially to Kyle dahil ayaw kong madamay pa sila sa saamin. They've been so good to me and I don't want to be the reason for them to fight. Kahit ako nalang, kahit ano nalang ang mahirapan

"N-no, of course not, I'm just busy–"

"Yeah! Of course, your busy hiding and avoiding us" pinigilan ko ang mga luha na gusto nang kumawala sa aking mga mata. Gosh! God knows how I miss them..

"Kyle! Ano ba?! Sinabi niya na ngang busy siya, diba? Besides, isang week nalang at final exam na natin and that means? Mag kakaroon tayo ng party!" I want to thank Alexis for diverting the topic, and thank goodness, umepekto naman ito

"Yihieee! I'm so excited! Let's go shopping after our last exam! Marami daw labas na new dress ngayon!" Thea added

They all agreed pero ako, wala akong planong pumunta doon. I'll better sleep, baka sakaling mabangungot ulit ako, baka sakaling mabalikan ko ulit ang mga alaala naming dalawa, baka sakaling mahawakan at mahagkan ko pa ulit siya at baka sakaling masabi ko pa sakanya na mahal na mahal, mahal na mahal ko parin siya

(This happened when Lexia is absent for one week, so let's say, Friday ito nangyari)

Thea's POV