Temporarily Broken✔

Total Recall

*****

I open my eyes again. The morning sun blinding my eyes. I quickly stand up and close the bindings.

But after yawning and a minute of thinking,

Wait, wait ,wait. I just FOUGHT a man in the dream. And fought alongside a man with a name called Zero...
I should be on medication.

Im going crazy and the person i was in the dream wasnt clearly me.

That wasnt me, that wasnt Jae Eun.

I take a deep breathe and let out a long sigh.

You are not crazy. Just relax and imagine it never happened, I tell myself.
But it was just surreal, like it happened before my eyes.

It felt nice....and it was refreshing.
I small smile crept up on my lips.

Am I smiling?

Thats never ever happened before in years. And yet a few dreams and encounters have just made me smile. And it was a genuine smile.

It was quite a rare experience that she could ever encounter in her life.
But for now, she'd have to attend the aftermath of school.

She quickly got ready and as she was about to leave the door, she looked back at the kitchen and stopped for a moment.

She used to say good bye to her parents right on this spot, on a daily basis. She would wave them good bye and go to school with a wide smile on her face.

But now, she sadly looked at the empty house and recalled the morning breakfasts that she and her family had spent together.

She missed how mom would serve her delicious pancakes and she would immediately grab the maple syrup from the refrigerator. She missed her mother's sweet voice that would chime in sync with the morning birds.

She laughed at the thought that her father burped loudly when he finished his breakfast and chuckled as if both me and mom didnt hear it. And in the end, all of us would laugh.

Either from mom's weird stories about her co-workers or from dad's effortless and hilarious dad jokes.

Mom would always ask how my day went when she would fetch me from school, and dad would show up from behind with ice cream.

Every saturday, we would go to a fancy chinese restaurant in the far side of town.
We didnt have any problems that we could worry about and we were practically just one happy family.

Until that one day when we were supposed to attend a funeral of mom's co-workers.
They say he died because of suicide and also because of depression. "Such a waste" my mom says over and over again until it gets stuck in my head.

It was raining hard and i could hardly see the road infront of us. I ask my father if it would be ok to drive at this kind of state but he just smiled and shook his head.

Its fine, it isnt that much of a big deal.

These were the last words that i heard from my father. After that, a tree fell and it all went black.

The next thing i know is that i woke up in a coma, surrounded with wires and my legs were hung. I panick for a moment and try to find my parents.

The nurse noticed me and calmed me down. And then the time when the horrible news were said to me, I shattered. I was in broken pieces.

Everything went wrong after that incident had happened. I couldn't blame my father or either my mother for what had happened. I loved them too much.

And i still love them now and forever.

*****

The entire morning was over after i had recalled everything that happened in the past.

I grab my things and head back home.

I wonder what mama and papa are doing right now? Are they having a happy life up there?

Questions suddenly pop in my mind that i havent ever asked myself before.

I find myself in a huge thinking mess that i even include far out topics in my mind.

I enter my house and make myself some iced tea and turn on the tv.

I sit on the couch and practically say a mean comment to whatever shows up in the screen.

"Psh. That man is going to leave you anyway. Dont bother trying to impress him." I scoff.

I sigh again and turn it off. I lie back down and close my eyes.

If i will sleep again, will the dream show up ? Will i ever see Zero again?

That dream is my ride away from this sad and boring life. If only i could get out of here.

Well, off to that same barren land again....