soulmate ↠ taennie ✓

05: empty

jennie's backstory

When I was 5 years old, I saw my friend Jisoo who was awakened when she felt a strange tingling sensation on her wrist and saw colourful scribbles decorating it when I had a sleepover at her house.

Both of us were young and didn't even understand what just happened as I've never felt it. We both cried as we thought Jisoo was sick and the design won't stop from appearing and it keeps getting bigger and bigger.

Jisoo's mom went to her room worried when we suddenly cried. She sat us down and told us the scribble that appeared was from Jisoo's soulmate. She told briefly about the enchanted tales of soulmates and I grew excited hearing the stories.

I was still confused as to why I haven't received any. She told me some people couldn't have the chance to meet their soulmate as theirs are gone before we meet them and the only thing we'll know if their drawings will disappear from our skin.

I was scared of the worst to happen as I was a big believer in fate. I was a sucker for romance and was certainly the type to believe in astrology and the skies.

Knowing that Jisoo's soulmate was there, Jisoo's mom encourages her to draw something back. She brought us markers and gave it to us.

Jisoo picked up a yellow scented marker and draw sunshine and little chicks. The soulmate drawback a figure that seems like Super Mario and some other messy shapes but Jisoo loved it anyway. They kept drawing back to one another after that.

I just sat there and watch Jisoo and decided to draw something for my soulmate. I drew a pink unicorn and waited for you to drawback. After that, I kept on drawing. I drew a carton of milk resembling that I love it. I drew it every day.

I was a child and chances are you are the same as I was. Maybe you haven't understood the idea of soulmates and maybe you haven't asked your parents yet.

But it never happened. You never drew back. The worst thought came to me but my friends encourage me to never give up and so I didn't.

I asked my friends, Lisa, Chaeyoung and Jisoo what it felt like "communicating" with their soulmate and they all described it as they feel connected to their soulmate. Maybe we hadn't connected yet.

If they feel the connection between them then what does it makes us?

When I was 8 years old, I went home from school feeling overjoyed. I ace a difficult test and I wanted to share my happiness with you so I drew a smiley face with an exclamation mark as a sign, I drew A's with red markers too just so you know.

I never stopped drawing on my wrist in hopes you would drawback. Even if you drew them by accident. Maybe just a scratch of pen or little scribbles or even your things to do.

When my parents told me that we were moving to New Zealand hence leaving Jisoo, Lisa and Chaeyoung behind I was devastated. I was hoping maybe you cared. Just maybe you draw me something back. I decided to draw a sad face with clouds and rains to express my sorrow.

But the sad things was you never drew back. Not even one. I gave up drawing to you and even I tricked myself into believing that you're dead even though I have a strong feeling that you are there and saw your wrist. Do you perhaps hate the idea of a soulmate so much?

There would be days where I hope you would just drawback even just a little dot on it would make me happy but then again ... My wrist is always empty. I felt empty. The last day before I completely cut you out I drew a broken heart just to symbolise that I was broken inside and I never drew anything until I drew it by accident.