Rant book

9; Dreams

The dreams i have are usually shit.
Just nightmares of things i dont want to face.
There are some pretty scary ones but one in particular hurts the most.
Im on a group call with all of my friends and it seems to be going well..
Then all of the sudden they start saying they hate me.. that i should die that im worthless.
That dream i have a few times a month.
I dread it so much..
Last night was odd. I had lots of good dreams and one was odd.
Not bad or scary but odd.
You came back.
You were tweeting again..
It was like when we first met..
Your picture was the one you had when we all had semi colons at the end of our names so we could be stupid..
You were restarting..
I was so happy..
I called my friend in this dream..
She knows everything you put me through..
I Remember her saying it was a trap amd i shouldnt be happy you are back..
She knew what you were like..
I told her everything..
That night you told me you had 12 hours to live..
The next day i sat in the back of the field crying with her..
Showing her the texts..
When you unblocked me when you came back saying
"Hello lovely"
I broke down in her arms.
She saw how much you hurt me.
Now in this dream she told me i should block you.. and i hung up on her.. i watched my timeline watching all the tweets you sent out. I was hoping our characters could get back together but you were already flirting.
With who i dont know..
But this was just a dream..
All a figment of my fucked up imagination.

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Most of these are gonna be about him..
December 28th 2017