everything, everthing

part two

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i reread farkle's message for riley and lucas when they came over. mom finally gave me my internet privileges back so now more talking to farkle. i must have seemed frustrated after reading all the messages because riley and lucas have nothing to say.

"you know, that farkle's a douche. even if i never met the guy, he's a douche," lucas speaks up. his relationship with isa happens to be working out well and so are riley and zay's.

i gently smile at lucas. "thanks,"

"i feel like isa's right. i mean how does farkle land himself a girlfriend how looks exactly like you. i just find it kind of weird," riley sighs.

"or it could be that he moved on," i hug my pillow closer to my chest. a strange feeling tugs at my heart whenever i think about that. lovesickness?

the brunette haired girl disagrees. "honey, from the stories you've told me about him, he doesn't seem like the type,"

"all men are dogs," lucas adds to help my argument.

"hey, don't be rude to dogs!" riley joked. the three of us startes cracking up almost scaring the witts out of nurse evil.

"here, give me your phone," riley commands. she starts tapping away and ends up on farkle's number. oh dear.

tuesday, 2:35 pm
messages between sparkles ☼ and mayflower ❀

mayflower ❀
lab partner?

sparkles ☼
uh hey may

mayflower ❀
sup

mayflower ❀
so, that girl is you're lab partner?

sparkles ☼
who is this?

mayflower ❀
excuse me?

sparkles ☼
this isn't may. she isn't this sassy and would never abandon correct grammar and punctuation and capitalization. may is more innocent and she would never fight

"oh shit girl, come get your man," riley hollers. i blush hard as my cheeks heat up. he knows me that well? have we really spent that much time together? then how come we aren't dating?

i take the phone from riley and text. riley and lucas peer from my shoulder and watch my every move.

mayflower ❀
Hey Sparkles.

sparkles ☼
there she is!

mayflower ❀
Can I ask you something?

sparkles ☼
sure

mayflower ❀
Is that girl really your lab partner? Your lab partner and your lab partner only?

sparkles ☼
you talked to isa didn't you

sparkles ☼
fuck

sparkles ☼
may it's not what it seems like

mayflower ❀
So it's not you dating some chick because we can't be together?

mayflower ❀
You know Farkle, I expected more from you. I thought you were different. I thought I would rely and trust you.

sparkles ☼
you can

sparkles ☼
its just complicated

mayflower ❀
What's complicated? We can work things out, can't we? We have this entire time.

mayflower ❀
Has this meant nothing to you?

sparkles ☼
oh maya of course it has, it's just

mayflower ❀
What Farkle?

sparkles ☼
for fucks sake maya

sparkles ☼
it's too hard

mayflower ❀
Don't you think it's hard for me too? I'm living my whole life in a bubble that I can't pop. So explain to me, why is it so hard?

sparkles ☼
because i like you

sparkles ☼
it's to the point when my heart wants to see you when i know i can't. it's knowing that we couldn't work but still having a bit of hope. maya penelope hart hunter, i like you so much that it could be to the point where it could be something more.

mayflower ❀
i like you to the point where it could be something else too.

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the next morning, i wake up earlier than usual. farkle and i had spent the entire night talking about places we would want to go. i told him my greatest dream is to go to paris. we talked for what felt like minutes to already be hours.

my feet tiptoe across the wooden flooring as i make my way to the music room. i creep into the room making sure not to wake anyone up.

as soon as i turn on the lights, all the windows are covered with paper. the bare wall that is covered in windows is now all covered with european sights and landscapes. the room lights up with the color from the photos and some even with farkle in them. right in the middle a single note hangs with some tape.

may, paris deserves to be seen by you.
xx, farkle

i can't contain my smile as i happily jump. farkle did this for me? we talked and he said that he was breaking up with his girlfriend to make sure we were okay. he was going to do that for me. someone cares about me. someone from the outside world.

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