Perfection [boy x boy]

Chapter 4 Flashback 8th grade

Flashback

Olivers pov

Oliver: Gavin over here!

I extend my arm and wave to Gavin so he can see where I am. He gets out of the car and crosses the school yard towards me. He smiles a bit, but something tells me it's a fake smile.

I've known him for so long now that it's become easier to understand how he feels and what he thinks. The same goes for him. As soon as I'm a bit depressed, he notices and tries to cheer me up. One of the reasons to why I could get really sad and depressed would be when my soccer team looses a match.

I've several times felt that I want to quit when it happens, but he always supported me and got me in a better mood. He knows it's my dream to become a pro and doesn't want me to quit because of a small match. Because of that I haven't given up and I've become one of the best players in the team.

Oliver: How are you? You look a little sad.

Gavin: As expected from Oliver, you can always read my thoughts.

He raises his hand to ruffle my hair, but I smack away his hand before he gets the chance to

Oliver: You're not getting away! What is it? Also, you can't ruin my hair, not today anyway. I spent a lot of time on it this morning! After all, it's the last day of school.

He laughs a little before he starts talking.

Gavin: There's nothing you need to worry about. I just didn't sleep well. Come on, let's go, the performances will start soon.

I nod and we go to the stage located at the back of the school. When we arrive, it has already started. On stage there's a girl singing. We listen to the tone-deaf girl until she was done singing and then we applaud.

After some more performances, the ninth graders get to go up on the stage to receive a rose and a gift.

Oliver: Next year we will be on the stage. I can't wait until we leave this shit school.

Gavin: Yeaah.

After everyone's gone up, the principal holds a short and boring speech and then we go inside so we can get our grades and then start our summer vacation.

Oliver: Finally summer break!! Next year we'll be in ninth grade... Can you believe it?

I look at Gavin, which strangely looks more depressed than he did this morning.

Gavin: There's something I have to tell you...

Oliver: What is it? Has something happened to your family again?

Gavin grabs my hand and takes me to our hideaway where we always played when we were kids.

Oliver: Haha I haven't been here in such a long time. Do you remember when you...

Gavin: Oliver, I'll be changing school after the summer break...

I freeze to his words. Am I dreaming? I thought we'd never split up... I thought we would leave this school together.

Gavin: As you know, my parents travel a lot because of their job. It seems that they have started a new project, which means that they have to travel a lot more than they did last year. I tried to convince them that I can take care of myself, but they're worried that something will happen. So they decided that we would move closer to our cousin who can take care of me. It's so far away from this school so that's why I'll be changing school.

Oliver: Why didn't you tell me earlier?! You know I don't like it when you keep secrets from me!

I can feel my eyes start to sting and I struggle not to cry. I'm not a person that usually cries.

Gavin: I didn't want you to think about it before graduation.

Oliver: You know you're always welcome in my house. Mom and dad wouldn't mind you staying with us and you know this!

Gavin: I know... But my parents didn't want to bother you more, they're really grateful for everything you've done for me.

It's quiet for a while until Gavin continues to talk.

Gavin: There's also one more thing I would like to tell you. I wasn't planning on telling you this but now that I'm going to change school I want you to know...

I look at Gavin that's staring down at the ground.

Gavin: I like you Oliver... I've always liked you, since we first met.

Oliver: I like you too, we've known each other for so long. We are best friends you know.

Gavin: Not in that way... Oliver, I love you!

Oliver: What?!

Gavin: I understand if you don't feel the same as I do. I understand if you get disgusted by me. I understand if you feel used... I just wanted you to know how I feel before I change school.

His face is red, staring into my eyes.

Oliver: Are you joking with me? I thought we were best friends and now you're telling me you're moving, changing school AND you have a crush on me?! What is happening? Do you hate me? You're really going to leave me like this? No, not JUST leave me all of a sudden, but also tell me you LOVE me... Is your plan to make me hate you? I feel disgusted, how could you do this to me? Lie to me that we are best friends and tell me everything the last day I see you. Your personality is shit, go fuck yourself! I really saw you as my best friend...why...

He gives me a sad smile

Gavin: I'm sorry...

He turns around and starts walking. After a few steps he turns to me.

Gavin: Bye Oliver, good luck with soccer and school! Never give up. Take good care of your sister. Okay?

He turns back and continues walking until he's out of sight. I feel completely empty inside. Tears flow down my cheeks.

Did I just lose my best friend? What now....

End of flashback

I have repressed that memory for a reason. I probably hurt him a lot. I didn't want to remember that my best or former best friend liked me in that way. But I don't care anymore

if he has a crush on me or if he had one. It's not something you can choose, who you fall in love with. If I just knew this before maybe, I wouldn't have lost my best friend. I just want him back...