Thoughts

I'm seeing you in a few days
It won't be the same
Our old videos seem to be non existent
Deleted
You got rid of them
But not all of them
I know you don't care but I still
Hope
That there's still a piece of you
That misses us
I can't wait to see you
But it's killing me
It feels good to hurt
At the same time
I just want to leave the world
Leave everything
I wish you understood
I wish we talked more than we do
I wish we stayed what we were
I still listen to our old songs
I still get goosebumps
I still feel the way I used to
My entire body feels light
I can feel your lips
I remember everything
I feel alive
I feel amazing
But I end up in tears
I have never felt this way about
Anybody else
You were my everything
Oh shit, I'm gay