"My daily routine was to be woken up near afternoon and then dolled up to be taken out for the entertainment of the men on that planet." I fiddled with my fingers. "Did they ever really hurt you?" Leia asked.
My ears perked up. "A couple times." I closed my eyes at the memories now threatening to surface. "It's alright, that's enough for today. You can go back to resting if you'd like. Or Lay could show you around the base too." Leia nodded. I smiled and Lay led me out. "It wasn't that bad, right?" Lay said looking down at me. "Yeah, i guess so." I bit my lip.
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Lay showed me around the base and i met a few of the people living here. They all seemed so happy. I hope i could reach that kind of happiness soon. "I have to go take care of some things so you'll be on your own for a while. Be good." He said with a wave, and then he was off. I guess I'll go back to my room. There was a bookshelf there, maybe i could start learning on my own.
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Wow, the first order is kind of wild. I mean, wow. I've read book after book, i don't know how long it's been. There's a lot of history to the resistance and the first order. What would happen once Kylo Ren fulfills what he wants to achieve? My tail swished. I wonder what the force feels like. I put the book down and sat up right on the bed with my back against the headboard. A Jedi is one with the universe. I feel the force in me. I am one with the force.
I closed my eyes and envisioned my home planet. How the trees swayed in the breeze and how the plants grew from the ground. How the animals lived along side one another. Everything had it's own balance, it worked together in harmony. There was a force bringing it all together. But that same force tears it apart too. My sweet visions of life began to quickly turn to one of malice, death, decay, and darkness.
I don't know how long i sat there drifting into the dark abyss of the force until i saw life. A rose opening in the middle of a snow storm. But that snow quickly turned into black dust and the rose was now wilting. I couldn't get out, yet i didn't want to. I was entranced, and intrigued. I wanted to know more, to see more. I liked it.
I suddenly opened my eyes and my body wasn't touching the bed any longer. I was raised slightly and the items around me rose too. The book, the glass on the night stand, my old clothing. All in the air. The door swished open, startling me. I let everything go. The glass hit the table and bounced to the floor and shattered. I flopped onto the bed.
"Oh shit! Are you okay?" I flipped my hair out of my face and saw a concerned Lay standing before me. I bit my lip while fumbling to stand up. "Yeah I'm fine." Lay walked up to me and shifted me over to the side, i was really close to standing on the glass. "What were you doing? Did i scare you?" He didn't see anything? A wave of relief filled my body. "I was going to set the book down on the night table when you opened the door and scared me. I guess i knocked it over then."
Lay looked straight into my eyes and my tail swished uncomfortably. "Your eyes looked a little different for a second." He mumbled. I feigned confusion. I tilted my head to the side and pushed some hair behind my ear. He smiled and ruffled my hair. I swatted his hand away and gave him a small smile in return. "What've you been up to this whole time then?" I looked down at my feet as a swayed side to side. "I've been reading books and stuff.. what've you been doing? Where'd you go?" I looked up into his caramel eyes. So cute. A light blush formed on his cheeks and i grinned.
"Taking care of some pilot stuff. I spoke with Leia, she said that you should get some training. You know, Incase of emergency?" He spoke smoothly. He walked over to the chair seated next to the bookshelf. The bed still has glass in front of it. He motioned for me to come over so i stood there awkwardly. I ended up sitting on the floor facing him until he lifted me onto his lap.
I squealed from the sudden movement and my face felt hot. He poked my cheek and i swatted his hands away. "I know how to fight yunno. We're taught at a young age for "Incase of emergency" situations" i told him while imitating the way he spoke. He pushed some hair behind my ear and played with my hair. "It's been a long time though" he mumbled. "It'll be good for you to stretch your body and learn more techniques." I nodded while purring. His fingers were trailing through my hair and it felt nice. My tail swished happily.
We sat there for a few moments until a droid came in to clean up the glass on the floor. I stood when i heard the door open, i was startled. Lay stifled a laugh and i pouted at him. "Get some rest cutie. We start tomorrow." He planted a kiss on my forehead and walked out. I smiled. I kind of like this.
