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Happy New Year :)

Ok, so this chapter isn't just about New Year. It's actually a bunch of updates all in one chapter so get comfortable. Oh, and the pic above was taken by Kearah. ❤

Currently, I feel like shit and I have been consistently but I'll just talk about how my break went first. We only had one week and I was busy for most of it. I was wrapping gifts, going out, doing hw, and working on projects. I actually ended up getting less sleep than I planned recently due to my schedule which is beyond aggravating because all I want to do is nothing. Literally nothing. But there's always something keeping me busy.

I celebrated my grandpa's birthday and Christmas with my family. My aunt got me wwe merch and my best friend got me bts merch, I was happyy. Then I pretty much froze when I was outside for long and got too sick to even function. My eyes were red, I was dizzy, I was sneezing until my throat hurt, and I got frostbite on my hands. It was still a good experience though, especially seeing the Christmas lights in Brooklyn.

Yesterday was really fun, I celebrated my girl's bday (tiana9295) and we took some sexy Polaroid pics. I wasn't really feeling good though, but I brushed it off and it got worse when I got home. My head was pounding, I was nauseous, I got random pains (not cramps) and I felt lightheaded. When I woke up this morning, the back of my neck and shoulders were hurting too much, it still does and djjsjsjssk the pain is unbelievable.

Anyways, yesterday was also this book's 1 year anniversary. Yikes. A whole year and the words I spill from my mind actually didn't go unnoticed. Over 2,000 views. I'm still shocked, tbh. Thank you guys so much, I really appreciate it!!

So in a few hours, 2017 will be over for me and everyone else in the Eastern Time Zone. Time to take a trip down memory lane, lmao.

This year, I

-Won second place in my city for a h.s. poetry competition

-Went to my first ever gala for it

-Celebrated my 1yr twiniversary w Kear

-Became an ARMY

-Found my happy place (this rock at a park my friends and I would always go to, I made a lot of memories there

-Slept over for the first time (at my best friend's house)

-Lost an important friendship with someone who used to be a brother to me

-Went to Florida over the summer :)

-Went to Six Flags for the 2nd time and rode the roller coaster Kingda Ka for the first time ever

-Developed feelings....

-Pushed them away for 5 months for a friendship (to make them happy)

-Went to a dance with a guy (as friends) to make him happy

-Started and ended a relationship lasting 3 days (to make him happy)

-Ate and slept less

-Self harmed

-Had 2 or 3 panic attacks

-Determined I was pansexual

-Made new friends (shocker)

-Developed artistic skills

-Found new passions

-Idolized more people

-Became obsessed with memes

-Experienced the lows of depression and highs of adrenaline

-Actually started to look sexy sometimes LMAO

-Learned a new language (Mandarin Chinese)

-Took pics in photo booths

-Obsessed over a senior

-Got my braces off

-Got a new phone

-Got 500 followers on Wattpad

-Lost my shit over Paige's return & the Shield's reunion & Undertaker retiring & the women's revolution in general

-Got retweeted by Eyewitness News

-Did community service :))

-Visited my mom..

-Went to my first Broadway show

-Made DIYs

-Became socially active lolol

-Ik there's more but that's all I got rn lmao

2017 wasn't really the best year for me but the people who stayed in it until the end made it worthwhile. I actually learned a lot from everything that didn't go well. I learned how selfless I am. I'd literally go the extra 20 miles to put a smile on someone's face, even if it kills me inside. I learned how to be loud and proud, how to let my voice be heard, and not be run over by people who want to take advantage of my kindness and my silence. I've definitely learned how to be grateful because nothing lasts forever. I learned how to live and be happy and I pushed myself to smile and promote positivity even if I felt the absolute worst. I learned it's ok to not be ok. It's fine to not be 100% all the time. 2017 has given me shit and has shown me I'm strong.

So, thank you. Thank you dad. Thank you, grandma and grandpa. Thank you to my aunt, uncle, and cousins. Thank you tiana9295. Thank you crybaby718. Thank you TBH. Thank you Kearah. Thank you Mr. Ackie. Thank you Tarin, Debbie, Sharielly, Nashy, Angel, and Diven. Thank you 118. Thank you BCSM. Thank you Xander. Thank you Shelby. Thank you April, Monica, Zöe, DeAnna, Kasey, Daya, and Riley. Thank you Wattpad. Thank you BTS. Thank you WWE.

Thank you 2017,

I love you all

WHAT'S UP, 2018!!!

-R

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