Hello again friends,
The tale I will begin to tell you is insane, more insane than anything I've ever done, the worst of the worst... Just kidding. It's just my day.
The day of the 23rd, I was happily listening to Frank Sinatra, as I've recently really gotten into his music. Reason being because a couple of months ago, a program I'm in "The Spectrum Academy" had a "Spectrum Showcase" which is where we were presenting to our families, and the community what Spectrum in it's first year, thus far, had done. Well, I was at Lewis' house and he turned on the song "You make me feel so young." and he asked me if I knew what the song was. I didn't so he told me, but it was really catchy, and it had a great groove, and so when I got home later I looked it up. Moral of this story, credit goes to Lewis for my new found joy in Frank Sinatra. But! Lewis and April both really like his music, and I feel like that's an priority to fitting in with them, so hey, I gotta do what I have to do to make sure I don't lose them, because they are such good friends, I don't want to lose them.
Anyway! So, I was listening to Sinatra when my favorite female friend, Savanah messaged me on Facebook to see if I wanted to go over to her house for a while, and spend the night. I told her I would have to come home because yesterday the 24th I had a thing to do, that I'll get to in a bit. Well, I also told her that I had to clean up my house a bit for my mom and then I'd be over.
Well thing after thing kept pushing my departure time off. But eventually, at 8: something, I was leaving! I arrived at Savanah's at about 8:30. It took me 20 minutes to walk there. Anyway, when her and I were messaging she told me she had been drinking a bit, and when I got there she was still drinking, but she informed me that our third musketeer, and great friend Tierney was drunk off her ass. So, that was funny a but, because Tierney is super grammar nazi, but she was typo galor with the alcohol.
My problem is, is I feel so conserved, like I can't do wrong, but I want to do wrong so bad! I was conflicted that if given the chance if I would drink any or not. It was vodka. I messaged our friend Daerian to help me out because Daerian belive it or not, despite my attatchement to Lewis, Daerian is my saving grace and has helped me through every emotional roller coaster I feel.
He said I should wait to do the drinking until college, but then Savanah asked if I wanted a sip, and so I did. She mized just a little with Pink Lemonade, and I couldn't taste the liquor enough, so I made the comment that there wasn't enough "Clear" in the glass" so she was going to pour more into her glass when I said "Or I can get my own" so I did, and filled about half of it with the vodka, and just mixed enough pink lemonade in so Savanah's dad and step mom wouldn't know I had tried their stuff.
The entire time I was so worried about my mom finding out and my face was feeling all warm, and In felt so warm and fuzzy inside, and I just wanted to curl into someones lap and talk the night away. I messaged Daerian the entire time. I don't know if he was disappointed or amused by my taking of alcohal, and what not. I preach "No alcohal, no drugs" all that, but for some reason, I just wanted to be a rebel. Savanah gave me water and mints to hide the smell on my breath, so thank you Savanah.
When my mom came to pick me up, I told her that Tierney was drunk off her ass and my mom went on about me not giving into the pressure and drinking, when I actually already did... Oh well. What she doesn't know won't hurt her.
Then yesterday.
Yesterday was a Dairy Breakfast used to get attention, and funds for an auditorium some people in my town want. April and her mom were coming to get me, so I was really thankful to them seeing as my mom had to be to work at 6. I was in new shoes, a new dress, I had my make-up on, and my hair down nicely. I felt like a celebrity, being watched, being fawned over, being loved. A feeling I thrive on.
Most favorite part of my day: When Lewis and I sang our song. - Yes Lewis and I do have a song together. For the "Spectrum Academy" we had a singer/songwriter workshop where we write our own songs, and Lewis and I did ours on theatre. Here is the lyrics.:
Bright lights, shining, on me, I am, blinded, starstruck, feeling, full-of-luck and,
I feel unstoppable on top of the world. The stage is my home, I feel it in my bones and take me there you better be prepared to be blown away.
The curtains close, the costumes on the rack, but I know I'll always be back.
I am unstoppable on top of the world, the stage is my home, I know if in my bones and, take me there you better be prepared to be blown away.
This is the feeling that you'll never get back .
I love this song, because it was the first song I'd ever writte, well helped write so it's so awesome!
I truly think that is all for now. Until later, Bry-C signing off. Au Revoir.
