The Girl I Left Behind

When It All Came Back

I was going home from work when I came across an old building where little kids were playing with their teacher. It was small with a playground outside. Wait, I know this place! This used to be my elementary school! It was surprising to see it still open, being that it was built like 50 years ago.

I remember studying in this place. Boring classes, bullies waiting for you during recess, and kids trying to act "cool ", for me though, I was just looking for my way out.

But just then did I see a beautiful woman. She was real pretty, I'd tell you that. But she also looked familiar. And at that exact moment, she looked right at me, smiling, as if she had a key to see through my soul.

I felt a shivering sensation down my spine, I don't know why. But as I looked into her captivating brown eyes, I felt every part of my body tell me who this girl was.

" it can't be her..." i muttered.

But i can't forget that smile. There's only one girl I know who has that beautiful, kind smile.-ONE GIRL.

One look was all it took, and at that exact moment, i knew who that girl was.-She was Jane Lewis, the girl I once loved, or rather, the girl I left behind.

All of a sudden, my mind went crazy and I almost fell on the floor if it weren't for her hand. It was like being saved by an angel. -a forgotten, fallen angel. Her touch was so soft, so gentle, just like the first time I held her hand.

"Are you okay? Are you hurt?" she said with a face full of concern. Hearing her voice after all these years was one of the most precious moments of my life.

"uh..i'm uh, i'm fine..." i said trying hard not to look at her.

"Are you sure?" she said while she lifted my chin, making me look at her beautiful face.

"uh..um..i'm fine-good, not harmed i mean.." i said. I gotta admit, even though 15 years have passed, she was still the girl I sat next to class with, the girl I fell in love with, the girl I abandoned. Sure she was older, especially around the eyes but despite all these age signs, she was still that radiant, beautiful girl I always knew. All these thoughts were put to rest when she spoke to me again.

"Ok, next time be caref- wait. Oh my gosh! Andrew? Is that you?"

Even though I so badly wanted to run, I just bobbed my head 'yes'.

After that though, I just ran as fast as I could and headed home. As I approached my doorstep, there were only four words I can say...

"IT CAN'T BE HER."

I barely slept that night. I kept thinking of her, of me, of us.

I mean Jane Lewis-MY Jane Lewis! 

Oh wait, my?

No! She's not mine anymore!

All these things kept rambling in my head. But they only meant one thing. That I was still in love with her, and was thinking of a way to get her back.

At that moment, I began to think about us.-before, i mean.

Then, I figured, maybe I should start from the very beginning.