Born an Angel

Chapter 23 - Plans to Make Amends

Jake's POV:

I remember when I first kissed her. It was better than anything I'd ever felt. Her lips were so soft, like kissing a pillow-- not that I'd ever do that. Sure, she had no idea what she was doing, but it was still perfect. Don't ask me how that works; it just does. I think that was when I realised I liked her, but I didn't think I loved her. I know it now. I love her more than I've ever loved anyone. Now I've lost her.

The depressed feeling I had made the ceiling more interesting, and I just wanted to stay there, staring at the white paint that had started peeling, revealing the structure behind it. I just laid there, wondering where exactly everything turned. Maybe it was all my fault. I used to be "the perfect child" and now I'm a mistake. Where did that change? Will it change back? If I changed, would Crystalline love me?

"Jake! The food's here. Come get some before it gets cold.'

Cold. I hate cold food. But I don't want to get up. I just want to lay here and remember... Remember being with her. My eyes closed and my head began to drown in memories. All the good ones that I'll never have again.

~FLASHBACK~

"I truly think you should try out for the track team," I suggested. "You're amazingly fast, and you can get out of the shadows!"

"But I like the shadows! Plus, grades are my number one priority, which means getting this project done and dusted," Crystal countered. I knew she wanted to drop this subject but I couldn't shake the fact that we'd win all the time if she joined. She'd carry the entire team! But she said no.

"Alright," I sighed, looking back at the screen that the working was on. All of it was hers since I'm too stupid to even think of a sentence that could contribute. I looked back over at her. She was looking at me, and we had now locked gazes. She had beautiful eyes. They were like a sky before the rain. I love the rain, especially when it storms. The calming feeling that I feel whenever the rain dripped down my skin could be felt whenever I looked into those deep and beautiful colours. I needed to say something. "You have potential, Kitty. You're... amazing. I didn't think you'd be so-" Don't freak her out. Don't scare her away. But my head had lost the reins, and my mouth ran away with the words that my heart had been thinking the entire time. "Perfect."

She didn't look away. She stayed. I felt a mix of relief and fear, as every other girl would've thought the same thing, that I'm playing them, even though I'm not trying to play Crystal. I just want to kiss her. Kiss. I wonder how it feels to kiss her. My eyes had gone rogue, looking down at her lips, without my permission. They looked a watermelon pink, smooth and soft, slightly parted, where shadows hid pearl white teeth from my view. I pulled my eyes back up to hers, but she had noticed. Well, no backing out now. I slowly leaned in-- not too fast, not too slow. She didn't back away, or move; instead, she closed her eyes. This is it. Finally. I closed my eyes too, and less than a second later, our lips were pressed together. Everything could've exploded and I wouldn't care. I haven't felt anything like this in a long time, and I'm not gonna let it go. My head went into overdrive, so my heart took over, taking her hands and wrapping them around my neck, pulling her closer. Our lips moved, making a sort of pulse that was sensual and slow, unlike our hearts that were pumping faster than ever before. Crystal began to get up, but never breaking the kiss, then she sat on my lap. I couldn't help feel aroused at this position, feeling the desire seep into places I hoped Crystal wouldn't notice. My lips began nudging her's open so that my tongue could sneak inside, and explore whatever it could. I am an amazing kisser, with lots of practice, and I planned on showing Kitty just that. I pull my tongue back for a second to gently bite her lip, which to my surprise, caused a moan. It was soft but clear, and even more attracting. It escalated to a rough hunger, both of us trying to get closer. I had to hold back though. I made a mistake, making that bet. I need to stop it before we get any closer, but I can't back out. I just need to hold off, until the end.