Dear John,
Its been three months since you were deployed to Afghanistan, and three months since the pain in my stomach began. The one you feel when you have been left alone and so far away from your one true love. The one that lingers in your stomach until that one person finds their way home in one piece. Often times I feel like the pain will never stop. I don't mean to make you feel upset or sad, but I just wanted you to know that I miss you terribly. I thought i would tell you the bad news first so that i could get that over with, like you always said, but i do have some good news that involves waiting, which i know you hate. This pain that I feel when you are away is substituted with this good news i have to tell you. The miracle of life. The medicine to our pained lives. Human life. You have probably already guessed and are smiling at this letter. After one year of trying it has finally happened. I hope with all my heart that you will be here for the birth of our new edition to the family, but if your not i will always send pictures. You probably have a lot of questions, so i will answer questions I can only guess you are asking at this moment. I found out yesterday at 12:00 p.m. that we have this miracle. We conceived Him/Her on April 19. My due date is January 22, 2016. I love you so much stay safe my soldier.
With all my love,
Charmaine
CHARMAINE POV
I have been married to a soldier for one year. He is a loving, gentle, and kind, the love of my life. When i was younger i had no intention of marrying a soldier because my worst fear is my love dying. When my high school years came I met John the only person at my school who gave me the time of day. He was the sweetest boy in the whole school and still is. We got married on February 25, 2014 in the church that we grew up in together. It was a military wedding that was dedicated fully on the service that all soldiers do for our country. It was the best day of my life. John and I fell in love right when we saw each other. I never was a stereotypical person, but i am now. I believe in true love, Love at first sight, and Fate. How could I not? it all became a reality for me. The reality for me now is caring for the loves of my life. My new baby and my husband who is so far away I can barely stand it. At least i have something i can look forward to, to take my mind off of things.
I have always lived in a life where someone I love has gone away forever and i don't want that to be the case now. My dad died when i was eight years old and my mother nine. Leaving me and my two sisters orphans, and nobody wanted three girls especially since one of my sisters was a 16 year old mom. We all lived in complete terror that at any moment my 16 year old sister, Jaylin Clarrise, would give birth. It was a good terror though, we all wished to be aunts but not that soon. So you could probably guess that she was the rebellious and rambunctious of the "pact." Always going off to parties to " have a good time," but one thing that always caught my eye is that she never drank or did drugs; it was probably because my parents died that way. My other sister, Lucia, she was always quiet and really never talked since our parents died. She was 14 at the time and very sweet we called her Lucia love bug. She always, even now, had a smile on her face, but something deep inside her was disturbed. Then there's me Charmaine was the youngest of the bunch and was the loudest. The "loud mouth" and the "drama queen" but i turned into a princess when i married my husband well that's what he always says. That's probably why i married him. No, married him for all the right reasons.
JOHNS POV
To the love of my life,
I am pleased to hear the wonderful news that you have told me about the baby. I know how you feel about the pain in you stomach it feels as if someone is stabbing you in the gut a million times, literally. I long for your love and to do the things we used to do such as read together and watch movies. I wish so much that i could be there for the birth of our son or daughter. I'm hoping to be home in six months. I never stop thinking about you and now i will do the same to our son or daughter. Thank you for answering those questions i was indeed asking them. I want you to find out the gender so that i can stop the curiosity in my head. I love you so much my darling. Duty calls.
From the bottom of my heart,
John
Narrator POV
This is how we all wish love to be like. Sending love letters and being there for the birth of the new child entering into the world but in reality its waiting. Waiting for everything. This is an example of how love was meant to be but the world changed and turned love into an unfathomable tragedy, death, hatred, murder, and suicide are all effects the human race has on today's society. Although its scary it is real. Families are split apart, marriages ruined, and relationships torn. This... is how society turned out.
Reality
Charmaine's POV
The world owes me. Its full of hatred and misery that is geared towards me. I cant do this on my own but i am because maybe i owe it to the world. Owe all my hatred and sorrow to the world just to be happy on my own. Well, I'm not entirely on my own. I have my unborn child who may or may not have a father when she grows up. I'm scared of reality, I'm scared of many things actually, many of which become a reality. I was excited when i figured out i had a child but i was also anticipating a father in my child's life. It wasn't a one night stand or anything of that sort, its war. My husband was deployed to Afghanistan three months ago. Three months and six days. What can i say, i miss him and i don't blame him for fighting for our country and for me alone, but i miss him terribly. I'm just being selfish and maybe that's just who i am, a selfish pregnant lady. Which makes me feel old. I'm only 25 and i am already fearful that my husband will die tomorrow. Its the story of my life, fear.
The baby is the happiest thing in my life and i have a constant butterfly feeling in my stomach. It's a miracle.