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#ordeal

Let me imagine you the way you really are

I could use a little help discovering the truth somehow

I'm about to enter the danger zone

There's no turning back, I'm going alone

I begin to discover pieces of the past

I rely on them so the journey should end fast

Guess who, an old shadow seems to follow me

It's creeping me out, it's way too obscene

The voices do not allow me to think clear

I hear sharp sounds, they're shaking with fear

Where's the resolution to all this madness

Where's the key to end the sadness 

I was mistaken, there's a deep, dark pit ahead

I can't look back anymore, I'm slipping into death

Not being pulled back, I regret

Being left with scars has become my best bet

I feel like I'm being swallowed whole

Am I doing myself a service by biting my tongue

There's a tune that keeps playing, out in the cold

This song is old, it's empty, it holds no meaning anymore

This road is about to end within the fires of despair

It's consuming my insides, they no longer breathe air

It's ash, it's toxine, it's an image of a living hell

I'm stuck in it, I live it, I remember it too well.

So should a mere second take place

So should I care less

I'm way too involved in this deal

I can feel this heart turning still

My mistake was not thinking twice before

I jumped in before getting the chance to say no

Now I'm facing the heavy consequences

Can I hold on, once I'm defenceless

..I figured out the person in this particular body

..It won't live happy just to be set free

..It survived the ordeal of defeat

..It ended up sick