Some stories just don't have happy endings.
I kind of accepted that a couple months ago.
Back when I was with Lotor, at the beginning at least. I had hope when my team came and rescued me.
But then it was lost again alongside Keith's memories.
Have you ever felt like there's supposed to be one perfect person out there for you? Who you're meant to be with?
That's bullshit.
I felt like that with Keith. Of course, I never would've admitted that to him. Or anyone for that matter. I didn't even really admit it to myself for a long time.
I came to terms with it soon enough. I wasn't ashamed of it, but in space you only get so much gossip, and if I told anyone, there was no doubt Keith would've found out. And I wasn't ready for that. It wasn't a crazy or irrational fear, everyone's felt that way before.
I'm not embarrassed about my sexuality even a little bit. I just don't want to tell people. I mean, it's not really their business, is it?
I believe that the only people whose business it is are me, whoever I'm with romantically, and possibly my parents. That's not to say that I don't plan on telling other people about it, I just mean that they shouldn't care.
It shouldn't affect them.
But knowing the world we live in, it would.
They would judge me. They wouldn't treat me the same, even though nothing had really changed.
They would probably talk about me behind my back- that's not to say I think they would necessarily say mean things, but I know that they would talk about me differently, too.
They always joke about me and Keith being in a relationship. Sometimes, that doesn't make me feel so good. I know they don't mean any harm, and I'm grateful for that. But it just makes it seem as if the idea of us getting together is so bizarre and could never happen.
I thought that maybe there was a chance.
But everything's just too complicated.
I can't put myself through the torture of loving Keith any more. I just have to accept the fact that everything I believed could happen for me, won't happen.
I won't go back to Earth.
I won't be able to leave Lotor.
I won't ever end up with Keith.
I just have to face the facts.
