Jealousy /*∆×∆*/ Sans x Reader

Ch. 26

I looked at her, awe struck, before I realized I had coughed up more blood. A blush spread to my face, embarrassed in to ways. Watching someone puke and then in turn coughing up blood isn't exactly comforting. I looked at a few other Sans and noticed they also had deep blushes on their faces. My fists unconsciously clenched.

Carrot on the other hand, was pushing Blueberry back, not wanting him to freak out. It was a very likely out come of what is happening.

But, I didn't want her to see me this way: always in pain, can't leave this void, still bleeding. Having said Good bye already was plenty of the pain to come. And I am not ready.

As far as I know, time doesn't pass here. It could be months since she'd seen me, years even. I could even go and see another part of her life with her standing beside me. But that doesn't change the fact that she shouldn't be here. Especially if we are dealing with Chara.

My feet carried me to the back of the crowd, I'm not the same person she saw. I have been alone, not many things to do besides suffer from insanity and other of my many mental disorders. Can't even sleep away the pain at this point, the void won't let me.

Yet, something about this Void is oddly familiar. I don't mean the save and load and reset buttons. There is something else. Something brought me here. What, I don't know.  But I should have died, you know, gone to heaven and all that jazz. Before, I thought I just walked through Snowdin village, no, I was lead. I could feel the rough hands on my shoulders, making sure I went in the right direction.

I was a lost soul.

The difference between mine and others is that we are linked between the universes. We all live through the same trials, pulling at the same thread. I go through it first, which means that death is coming soon for all of the other Sans. But I am also the original copy, if something goes wrong, I have to still be alive. That's where the Resets come in. The Universe resets, I remember this and don't make the same problem.

It rarely happens when a decision can't be reversed. The first is when my father was separated between all the AUs. Then there's the whole chain of everyone forgetting him. Yup... I lost my job. Anyway...

The next was Papyrus. You probably wouldn't believe me if I told you he wasn't supposed to be here. But you'll have to believe it anyway. A little experiment father messed up with. Though, I couldn't live a day without him. Literally. Barely have enough motivation to get out of bed let alone leave the house to anywhere but Grillby's.

I am getting so far off topic here. This started off as me talking about not wanting Y/N to see me. Which she probably has by how much I've been day dreaming. Oh, another thing with this void, my magic doesn't work. I can't teleport, summon bones, nothing. It's kind of Sad that I can't do a lot of my usual pass the time activities....

I'm sorry. Very sorry. But I haven't had the motivation to write here but I love all of you. It's been a rough couple of weeks and I hope you guys have had better.

Dont forget, I love you and so does Sans. You are filled with determination.
~Willow

Edit: I wanted to ask some loyal viewers what I should write next. If you read any of the books on my profile, you'll notice that I am starting to lose interest. I desperately need ideas now that summer break is coming. If you have something you cant quite put into words, PM me. I go by Geo now, GeometricDragon. Please, guys, I'm counting on you.