Floral & Fading (Perrentes M-Preg)

Chapter 28

May 17th, 2013

I close my eyes as I lay on the bed and Mike walks around. "Alright I'm going to the studio to help that new band with their drum takes since that guy quit," he says and I nod my head as I pull his pillow to my chest. I open my eyes to look at him and he's leaning against the door frame smiling at me. I raise my eyebrow and he pushes off the door frame and starts to walk over to me. "You're so beautiful. I'm sorry I have to leave you today but I'll be home tonight," he says and I smile at him and sit up. Tiredly I make grabby hands at him and he comes over to me and wraps me in his arms.

"I love you," I say and he presses a kiss to my lips. I kiss him back and he pulls me closer then rests his forehead on mine. He presses a kiss to my nose then pulls away and smile. I smile back and he blows me a kiss and walks out of the room. Quickly I plop back in bed and close my eyes. I haven't really been able to sleep since we brought Catalina home, and that was a week ago. She will not sleep through the night! I sigh then look to my side and see her laying in the bassinet asleep still. A lazy smile goes across my face when I close my eyes and try to go to bed.

The room was quiet and the bed was warm. Mike's smell was surrounding me and I shove my face into Mike's pillow. I know today is going to be rough without him here to help me. I groan the wince and peak open my eyes to look at Catalina and she is starting to shift. I hold completely still and just look at her. Slowly gurgles started to leave her and I sigh. She's awake but she's not screaming. A thrilled smile goes across my face so I lean over and pull her into my arms then laid her in front of me as I sat up "Hello there my little Cat." I say and she looks at me with curious eyes and kicked her feet.

I lean down and tickle her small tan feet and she lets out a loud squeal and kicks my hands I let out a small laugh at my daughter then shake my head and pick her up again. "I have chores to do, you need a bath, I need to feed you, I need a shower, I have to make a grocery list for your Daddy to pick up so Mama doesn't have to go," I say to her as I force myself to get out of bed. Gently I lean down and press a kiss to her forehead and head down the stairs.

There was baby stuff everywhere! Bouncers, stroller, binky, bottles, diapers. I sigh and shake my head then go into the kitchen and lay Catalina into her rocker. She lets out a small whine so I pop a binky in her mouth as I move her bouncer onto the counter. 'There you go, now you can see Mama clean and all that while you lay down and be calm." I coo out at her then go to the sink and get a rag wet.

Eventually, if I didn't clean I would lose my mind so I knew I had to take the day to do small chores. Sure it's a bad day to do it cause Mike isn't here but I have to. With my wet rag in hand, I start to wipe off the counters and put things away. Then sometime in my cleaning frenzy I turned on music and started to dance around. "Hey, queer I'm here!" Jaime yells and I look up and see him walking into the kitchen. I smile and he throws open his arms. I open mine as well thinking he was going to hug me then he sidesteps me and goes over to Catalina.

He picks her up and starts to bounce her in his arms. "Oh my little sobrina!" he says and I roll my eyes then go back to cleaning.

"What are you doing here Hime? You didn't call." I say and he looks at me with a smile and winks.

"Your boyfriend said you might want some company today to make sure this little one behaves," he says then looks down to Catalina with like pure joy in his eyes. I smile as I put away the dishes and all that. "Your house is surprisingly tidy for having a new baby in the house," he says and I raise my eyebrow.

"One, it looks like a tornado came through here. Two, technically she's almost a month old!" I say and his eyes go wide when he sighs and nods his head.

"When you look at her you almost forget she was in the hospital for so long," he says and I nod my head while leaning against the counter.

"I guess for you it is. Every time I look at her I can't help to feel blessed. I know it's stupid but she almost died Hime. As her Mom, I can't think about it." I say and he nods his head slowly.

"Didn't mean to strike a nerve," he says and I smile at him.

"You didn't. It's just Mike and I don't really talk about all this because it hurts and we know what we went through. I guess it is still so much.... Fear." I say.

"I don't want to say I get it but I get it. I was there every day for the first week with Y'all," he says and I walk over to him and place my hand on his shoulder.

"Mike and I couldn't have gotten through this without you and Vic," I say then go back to cleaning. I hear Hime stand up then the music starts to play again. I look back and see him dancing with Cat in his arms. I smile at him then continue cleaning. Slowly yet surely everything starts to get clean and the stress slowly leaves me.

"Hey Tony I'm sorry but I have to leave," Jaime says and I nod my head.

"Well, you've been here and watching her for almost four hours now so that fine," I say with a slight chuckle as I walk over to him and take my daughter into my arms. He smiles at me then ruffles my hair.

"Goodbye turtle. Take good care of Cat," he says then we both crack up at what he just said. Together we roll our eyes at one another then he heads out of the house waiting for me. I wave at him as well then he shuts the door and it slams. Cat jumps in my arms then she starts to cry loudly. I sigh and I nod my head.

"Sounds about right." I sight then try to calm her down. More and more times passes and I'm about to tear my hair out but then I see my guitar. Quickly I put her ricker down on the ground, lay her in it, then grab my guitar and kneel in front of her.

Gently I strum the guitar and start to play Hold On Till May really slowly. Her loud cries turn quiet and I smiles as I slowly watch her fall asleep to the soft music of my guitar. "Thank god I found something that would work," I whisper when I stop playing and look at my daughter. "You know what Mommy is tired as well. Screw my chores lets nap."