chapter seventeen
dear dairy
Yeah I am back fast this time, Jake had to leave early which disappointed me. But he had told me earlier that he had to do something with the pack. So I am all alone in my room once again. But tomorrow he will have the whole night with me, so guess what will happen? Yeah you guessed it, I know I'm bad. I wish I could get my dad out of my mind. Diary, don't tell anyone what I am about to tell you, I think I am pregnant! You heard me pregnant! I haven't told Jake yet, I am so scared how he would react to this. I haven't told anyone else either. My parents would be pissed at me. I think it happened when I was camping with him and the pack. But I don't even know if I really am pregnant. They won't let me do anything without anyone else around. I know the rest of my family will be disappointed at me. What am I going to do? I am only 17 years old and I am too young to have kids. I am just so worried about how Jake's dad will react to this. I like him and all but we aren't married yet. I just hope I can get Auntie Alice alone so I can talk to her. We are so close; I hope she won't be angry at me. But I know she will be anyways. I know I won't be going camping with him once they find out. I can't talk to Kim, Emily or Leah about this because their boyfriends are Jake's friends. So I have to tell Auntie Alice, and may be she can tell my mom once I really find out if I am pregnant or not. I just hope I am not. Maybe that's why I didn't eat at the diner. But I want to find out if I am though. Well I should go now, I'll be back tomorrow.
Love, Renesmee
I closed my diary and hid it in a good hiding place. If they would find it all hell will break loose. And that would be the end of my camping trips; they were nice enough to let me go. I walked over to my bed and laid there thinking about all of this. What if I am pregnant and they rush me to marry Jake or forbid me to go camping again? I am just so freaked out about all of this, it's not even funny. I am in love with him. But I know I am too young to get married and have kids. But look at my mom she was only 17 or 18 but she was married to my dad. I was about to take out a book and start reading it when I heard a knock on the door.
"Who is it?" I asked
"It's your mom."
"Come in mom." I said.
"Do you want to come down and play a game or two with us?" She asked.
"Nah, I was about to read a book." I answered.
"Okay, if you change your mind we'll be downstairs." She replied as she walked out of my room and down the stairs
. I wasn't in a mood for playing games not with what I am thinking about. So I turned to the first pages and began to read. I couldn't read much either, with all of these questions swirling around my head its making me crazy. Just imagining the look on my auntie's face makes me worry, it'll be the first time I will see an unhappy expression on her face once she finds out.
