Dearest diary
Today I will go to the drug store to get a pregnancy test to really know if I am pregnant ,than I will call Jake to tell him the news. After that I would go to Auntie Alice and to talk to her. This won't be fun or good. I have this big problem with my parents about this. I think they might have a little worried that something is fishy going on. I am going to get in trouble once they find out. What am I going to do? Will I be force to marry him or force to abort this child? I was lying in my bed last night thinking about all of this. My dad will be very pissed off at me. I don't blame him if he is, but it's my entire fault and he trusted me and I broke it. My mom will be upset with me, and can't think about my grandparents how they would be. My mom never talked to me about sex. I think it was because she thought I would wait to I get married. But I don't want them not to trust Jake. That would probably will happen. Emily is taking me to get one of those tests than we are g oing to her house so I can do it. She did promise me that she won't tell anyone. But Leah and Emily are my best friends now. I just told them I need something that know one knows , but Emily did ask what I had to tell her so she won't keep bugging me about what I need. I just hope Sam will not be home because I know he will tell Jake and I want to be the one to tell him. I could just see the look on his face when I tell him. It would be a nice time to tell him tonight since we have all night together. But I do love him. I know he loves me, plus I know he would be a great dad. Well I got to go now, till we meet again, see you later.
R.C. Cullen
I closed my dairy and hid it the same place as before. I just didn't want anyone to read it. Then I fixed my hair and put on my shoes and went downstairs to wait for Emily to pick me up. My grandpa Carlisle was reading the paper but once he saw me he put the paper down. I knew something was up but I didn't know what it was. So I sat down next to him and smiled.
"Nessie, sweetie is there something you need to tell me?" He asked
"Ah like what?" I asked
"Well you been quiet for a while and you don't want to be bothered with your family." He answered
"No, its okay." I said
"well your parents wanted me to talk to you." He responded.
"Why?" I asked "
All you been doing is writing in your dairy that your aunt Alice brought you." He answered
"Gramps you know I love to write." I said
"Yes, but you need time to be with us." He replied
" I will I promise I will spend time with you all." I said
"When?" He asked "
Later.' I replied
"Later when?" He asked
"It can't be tonight, Jake and I are doing something." I answered I saw the look on his face;
I think he was a little worried about I wasn't telling him the whole story. I think I will let my dad tell him when he finds outs. I got up and kissed grandpa on the cheek and walked outside and waiting for Emily pick me up. I love him but I couldn't stand him like that, if you know what I mean.
