Dream

Chapter 17

A week later....

        Everything felt like a blur...I don't remember how I got back home....or how Christmas was....or how a week had past. Have I even left my room? When was the last time I ate? Or combed my hair? Or change? I just rolled around in bed. My parents were home, but I haven't laid eyes on them, yet. Lez has been outside my door for the past few days. She doesn't know what's wrong with me. I haven't opened my mouth...My phone was vibrating every few minutes.

200 new messages from: LEZ

49 new messages from: RYAN

77 new messages from: GLENN

3 new messages from: NOAH

        I haven't checked any of the Noah messages....I dunno if I should. I didn't want to know what he was saying...I couldn't forget what he said.....I did care about him! I loved him! I know I did....even though I loved Kendrick, too and that was wrong, but I knew I loved Noah. I knew I had to fix things with him. Maybe it wasn't over....i opened up the messages:

Noah: [media content]

there was a picture of him and Ginger....kissing.

Noah: I'm srry it has to be this way, but i won't to let u knw...it's officially ovr. I'm seeing Ginger now.

Noah: Can we stay friends?

        I quickly put my phone away. It was.....it was over. He was dating my friend....my EX friend. My heart cracked. I had to get out. I couldn't sit around here any longer. I ran into my closet and quickly changed into sweats and a hoddie. I was about to walk out my door....when I realized that Lez was probably waiting for me. Or my parents....they'd force me to talk about it...but I don't want to talk about it....I walked over to my window and forced it open....I slowly climbed out. When I made it to the ground I realized....I left my phone. I shook my head....I didn't need it. I climbed the fence and ran. I dunno where I was going....All i knew was that It was freezing....and it was New Years Eve. 

        I walked for hours....it was getting late, but I refused to go back home. I sat inside a Starbucks for half an hour. I would have got me some coffee...or hot chocolate, but I left my wallet. I sat there absorbing the heat and the strong coffee scent. After I sat there for a while....I decided to leave....It was almost 10 now. I wondered if my parents knew I was gone? They probably assumed I was till crying in bed. I walked to the Diner...the Diner Noah took me to. I looked through the window. I saw Gina....she was talking to Noah. My heart crumbled once I saw he was sitting beside Ginger. They were holding hands under the table. Why? What had I done to deserve this? He was smiling...until he turned his head slightly and saw me...looking through the window. His eyes filled with sorrow....I ran. Tears streaming from my cheeks...My voice cracking. I wanted to scream...I fell on my knees. My knees became soaked by the small palate of snow. I stayed there crying....I wanted to go home. I wanted to sit by the fire with Lez. I wanted my mom....my brother...my dad. I wanted to be loved. I got up and looked around. Where was I? Nothing looked familiar....I slowly walked forward....where was the road? Where were the buildings. It was pitch black...except for the light of the moon. I found myself face to face with a lake....it was shinning....I kicked off my boots....I walked through the burning snow...towards the small body of water....few seconds later I'm knee deep in the freezing water....

        "Maybe I'll go for a short swim...." I sighed....before I remembered.....I couldn't swim.