Chasing Waves

Chapter 5

[Footsteps that stopped behind me]

‘Writing a love letter?’

Caine teased as he peeked over my shoulder at the letter I was writing.

Then he saw the contents and frowned.

I quickly shoved the completed letter into my pocket.

‘It’s nothing, really.’ I mumbled, looking away.

I didn’t blame him for reading the letter,

That’s what we constantly did in the past anyway.

‘Really?’

He asked, all concerned.

That was why I was mad.

He was concerned.

He didn’t have to be.

He had no right to be.

 ‘Just… sod off…’ I gritted my teeth, willing my tears to not fall

‘So you’re not fine.’

‘I’m perfectly fine.’

‘Liar.’

I shot him a look and walked away haughtily.

Yes I was fine and no,

He sure did not have to worry.

Or bother about my personal affairs.

 [Darkness]

It was what surrounded me as I lay on my bed,

Wide awake…

No,

 I couldn’t sleep.

I can’t believe I vented all my frustrations on Caine…

Innocent, innocent Cupcake Caine…

I felt it,

The tears,

They streamed down my cheeks and wet my pillow.

I really had to start fixing my screwed up life before I

Lose

Another

Friend…

[Next Morning]

I woke up bright and early.

I felt warm sunlight on my bedspread.

It felt really good.

I felt really good.

Even though yesterday was, well… not so good.

Anyway,

I’d be posting the letter…

Today ^^

[School]

I turned into the courtyard and immediately headed up the steps to the school.

No lounging under the weeping willow today

I passed by several students, going about their own business,

The Science Geeks, early for school as usual,

A few couples, stealing a few kisses here and there behind locker doors,

Students rushing homework…

I passed them all

I practically ran to my class and stopped in front of her desk,

Note between my trembling fingers.

But before I left it, I just stood there and looked at her table.

Pictures of One Direction, Cody Simpson, Justin Bieber, Taylor Swift and other popstars covered her table.

Pictures of her and Joanna and a few other girls too…

No more pictures of me and her I figure….

I remember when we stayed up all night just to talk about our favourite stars and how she would be extra giggly and excited…

I remember what she would tell me every time after we took a picture together, ‘This is so going onto my table!’

Nostalgia…

Must be my newest best friend nowadays…

Those good old times seemed so far….

So very

Far

Away…

[Class]

It wasn’t long before others started filing in to class.

Adriane wasn’t there. She took Art instead.

Joanna,

 Peter,

Maeve,

Syria…

I didn’t look up from my Literature book.

I did not want to seem like a weirdo,

Staring at Syria so much.

But I could feel it,

Everyone staring at me.

I shivered.

Why?

Then from the corner of my eye,

I saw her taking the note and

Tearing

It

Into

Pieces.