Him | Namjin

At Nineteen ask him

Jin's P.O.V.

I never asked for this. The moment I married Namjoon I thought life would only go uphill from there. Sure I knew it wouldn't be perfect but it would be close.

What I do know is that I have to let go of Namjoon.

Why?

Because he deserves happiness I don't. I'm lying to him.

Ah then Tae.

Tae wasn't planned.

"My gosh." I shake my head.

Since the day Namjoon asked me to be his boyfriend I had the rest of our lives planned out.

Namjoon messed up that plan.

And then I asked for Tae, but Tae's the best unplanned thing ever.

"I should sleep." I closed my eyes and stayed that way.

"Papa!"

"Yes Tae?"

"Take me to school!" Oh shit I overslept.

"Did you eat?" I started putting on my shoes.

"Yeah daddy made me pancakes."

"Alright let's go."

"You be good okay?" Tae nods and walks away. He's the best unplanned thing I could ask for. Yet I'm lying to him too. I felt a buzz on my phone.

Namjoon: Good morning love

I didn't respond. Today was the day I get things done.

"Can I help you?"

"Yes I want to buy a video camera." The salesman takes me to a section. "This is the latest model." Small and simple I don't need anything complicated.

"I'll take it."

I arrive back to where I went the other day late at night. This off track path.

"Okay is it recording?" A red button was on so I took as a "Yes".

After recording I went to Namjoon's job. But I'm not going to see him I'm going to see Jimin.

"I'm glad you could meet me and sorry for disturbing your lunch."

"I don't get why you keep talking to me I-"

"Jimin listen to me.." and just like that Jimin began to hear my side of the story.

"I'm so sorry." He was crying his eyes out. He got on his knees "Jin you don't deserve this-"

"What ever you do don't tell Namjoon that we met."

"I don't talk to him any-"

"Start talking to him again and get up don't be pathetic." Before Jimin could go against my words I walked away.

Time to pick up Tae.

"Papa!"

"Awe my Taehyungie." I held him tight.

"Do you want to go to somewhere with me?"

"Yes!"

"This is papa's place to come and clear his mind."

Funny how I was here a few hours ago yet I'm back with a different mindset. It's because of Tae.

"I like it but I'm afraid I'll fall."

"You won't just don't go too far off the cliff."

"It's better at night cause you get to see lights."