Him | Namjin

Twenty Three

-Play song before you start reading-

Namjoon's P.O.V.

I walked over to the doctors office quickly. They said it was urgent I hope I'm okay. After all I want to watch Tae grow up with Jin by my side.

"So how am I doctor?" I asked while sitting down.

"I never got my results."

"Let's talk about the real issue here."

"Are you aware of how much time is left?"

"What I don't understand."

"You've been sick for awhile."

"Wh-what?" I thought I was fine.

"You'll die very soon."

This can't be happening. My husband my best friend my parter I'm going to leave him.

My child my baby TaeTae he needs me. I need to take care of him.

"WHAT DO I NEED? A LIVER? ANYTHING PLEASE!" I was on my knees tugging the doctors coat.

"PUT ME UNDER THE KNIFE WHAT IS IT!?"

"You know you've had cancer your whole life...yes you've gotten better but then we noticed a tumor in your head then the cancer also came back it's too late."

It's too late? It can't be too late... we have to watch Tae grow up.

"Jin he's healthy."

"How long?"

"A week maybe less." I ran out the room and ran to my car.

"Kim Seokjin why do I have to leave you?"

"Jin?!" I ran all over the house.

"Jin please!"

"Daddy?" Tae came out of the bathroom.

"Where's papa?"

"He went exploring again! He said we have to find him." Tae went back into his room.

How could he... how can he just leave Tae?

And in this moment everything came to place.

Flashback

"Because that day will come when you least expect it."

End of Flashback

"So this is his way of getting back at me..." I looked at our wedding photo.

"You knew I was going to die Jin..." I talked to his photo.

"You knew and never told me...WHY?" I started to cry "How could you not tell me...how could you put Tae into my life when you knew I was going to leave him..."

The thought of leaving Jin hurt like hell but it hurt more because of Tae. Tae doesn't deserve only one parent. It's sad how he'll get picked on for having only dads but now he'll only have one.

"You let me get attached to Tae knowing I wouldn't see him grow up!" I threw the picture on the floor.

I have no time to keep being mad or sad.

"There's one place I haven't checked but tomorrow morning Tae and I going..."

I picked up the picture and kissed it then went to Tae's room.

"It's the weekend tomorrow let's find papa okay?" He only nodded his head.

A three hour drive tomorrow morning.

"Knock on the door TaeTae." He ran to the door and knocked.

"Who is-"

"Taehyungie..." he looked up "Joonie..."

"Papa!" Tae was in Jin's arms.

"How did you-"

"It's the last place I didn't check." Jin invited us inside.

The place was cozy but Jin looked like he hadn't slept in weeks.

"Is this where you've been?" Tae looked out into the garden "Yes."

"It's nice but can I sleep?" It's 6 a.m and we've been in the car for three hours I don't blame him.

"Okay let me tuck you in."

"I guess you found out right?" We were out on the back porch.

"Yoongi was right you should live your life."

"I'm happy with you guys."

"Then why did you leave us?" My voice is cracking at this point.

"I wanted you to have Tae for yourself and besides I can't watch you die with out me being able to do anything."

"I'll pray for you I'll do anything."

"It's too late for me Jin ..." I hugged him tightly.

"Don't say that-"

"I just wasn't meant to live a long life." My voice was soft and quiet.

"You can't leave Tae he needs you."

"It hurts to know I'm dying."

I pulled away and hit his arm lightly "You knew this whole time!" What's the point of holding in my tears.

"Namjoon don't cry please..." his eyes were starting to water.

"You weren't suppose to find out like this..."

"I have one question for you Jin."

"Yes?"

"Where's a place you would've like to go to?"

"Hawaii."

"Let's go with Tae right now."

"What?"

"You heard me."

"You're crazy."

"And you're out of your mind for leaving us." I wiped away his tears.

"I'll always look out for you no matter much time I have left here."