Him | Namjin

Day 1

Namjoon's P.O.V.

I walked back into our room. I see Jin asleep since we're back at home. I should hate you for not telling I'm going to die but I don't.

I walked down the hall to Tae's room. He's been asleep. I'm sorry TaeTae for not being able to be there when you need me.

Tae deserved a family one that Jin couldn't give him.

"I hope life doesn't do any terrible things to you." I was starting to tear up. He grew up as an orphan with no one and now he won't have parents.

"I would tell you not to fall in love but I can't limit you with my words." I stared at Tae's sleeping figure.

"You can fall in love Tae but please don't be like me." I let a tear fall out.

"I'm sure it'll be Kookie. You treat him better than how daddy treated papa alright?" I walked over to him and grabbed his hand and intertwined our pinkies.

"You'll be better than me okay." I kissed him on his head.

"Don't give papa a hard time either."

"I love you my little prince." I got up and left his room.

I walked down the hall back to Jin.

"I can't find the words Jin.." I made sure not to wake him up.

"I'm weak sure physically but more emotionally."

"I fell for you so hard and I wasn't able to give you the love you deserved."

"You're the only thing that's worth what life's worth." I hope you'll truly forgive me one day.

"When you wake up I'll be gone." I can feel it. Death is something no one can really explain. But from what I heard you just feel like you're going to die because you just know. Something clicks in you and it hits you harder than anything but emotionally which is worse than physically.

Now I understand what they mean.

My eyes started to get heavy. Crap.

I fell onto the bed. I can't feel anything.

My eyes aren't closed but I can't see anything. Somethings getting old why is it so cold?

Oh please no I can't die yet. Please. Just give me more time please.

No?

But Tae needs me I have to help Jin.

I can't leave them behind.

But I have no choice or say.

Here I go.

Until next time Kim Seokjin take care of Kim Taehyung.

I love you both.