Him | Namjin

Twenty One

Jin's P.O.V.

A day went by.

A week went by.

A month went by.

"I've been gone for about a month." I crossed off another day on my calendar.

I wonder how Taehyunie is. I wonder how Namjoon is.

I heard a knock on my door. Is it bad that I hoped each time someone knocked on my door I hoped for them?

"Hyung..."

"Yoongi?" He pulled me into a hug. "I went to visit Tae and I got the news you left."

"How did you find me?"

"It's grandma's old house we grew up here I knew you would be here."

"Did you tell Namjoon that I'm here?" I pulled away looking at him.

"No." He's not lying. I wish he did tell him.

"How's Namjoon?"

"He's hiding the pain to be strong for Tae."

"And Tae?"

"He keeps blowing some whistle saying that one day it'll be loud enough to bring you back."

My heart...it's clenching I can feel it.

"This isn't good for my health my heart hurts." Yoongi helped me sit down.

"You're not living your life hyung."

"I know."

"Are you going to go back home?"

"I'm not sure what if I decide and it's too late."

"Too late? Oh."

"I don't think Namjoon would move on."

"Yoongi that's n-"

"I'm in denial okay? You're out here in the country it's harder to see you."

"Namjoon gave me this and told me if I somehow figured out where you were to give it to you."

"I wish I spent more time with you instead of being mad with you...I have to go back."

"When will you be back Yoongi?"

"Not anytime soon." His eyes began to water.

"Hyung I know I don't say it but I love you."

"I love you too my little brother." Yoongi was crying on my shoulder.

"All this time I could've been with you but I was mad."

"Hey..." I pulled him out of the hug and looked him in the eyes.

"At least we're under the same sky." I held him tight.

"Goodbye hyung until next time." I walked Yoongi out. I watched his figure disappear into a dot.

I looked at down at an envelope.

I sat down mentally preparing myself for what it could say.

Jinnie,
Tae misses you a lot along with me. It's messed up how you left us but more importantly Tae. He needs his papa and I need my other half. Tae and I go out looking for you every free time we get. One day we'll find you so don't move where ever you are. I love you.

I let a tear fall out. I'm stupid I can't do this anymore.

With every once of energy I have I'm going home today.

After three hours of driving I'm home. Tae's at school, Namjoon should be picking him up now. I only had a few minutes to make them food.

I finished decorating the cake when I heard a car pull up. I hid behind the couch.

"Daddy can we look for papa today?"

"Let's go for it I'll change and we can go." Namjoon turned on the lights.

"Namjoon..." I stood up.

"Taehyungie...it's been awhile." Taehyung ran into my arms.

"Papa! I missed you!" I kissed his forehead. Namjoon came to me slowly. "Jin I-"

I kissed him.

"Ew!" I laughed at Tae's cuteness. I've missed this.

"I made you guys a cake eat it." I put Tae down as he ran to the kitchen.

"You." Namjoon huged me forcing me to walk backwards into the wall.

"Don't leave us again." He whispered into my ear.

"Papa!" I spent the whole afternoon playing with Tae and Namjoon.

"Yes?"

"Where did you go? Daddy says you went exploring with out me!"

"It's the best I could come up with." Namjoon whispered to me.

"I did actually."

"That's not nice." Tae was pouting. This is new.

"I'm sorry Taehyungie."

"Let's tuck you in Tae."

"I want papa to."

"Okay then."

I carried Tae of into his bed. After telling him a bed time story he knocked out. I placed an envelope in his drawer.

I went back into my room.

"Hey Jin."

"Yeah?"

"I have some business to do at the hospital I'll be back." He kissed me and started to put on his jacket.

"Business?"

"Yeah I never got my results for my check up." He's going to find out.

"Namjoon." Don't panic.

"Yes?"

"I-"

"I love you too babe." He kissed me and walked out.

He's going to find out.

I ran into Tae's room.

"Taehyungie."

"Mm papa?"

"Papa has to leave again."

"Why?"

"Exploring is calling me."

"Let me go too."

"You have school."

"You're coming back right?" I kissed his head "Looks like daddy and you have to try and find me."

"Okay..." he's believing it.

"I love you papa." He went back to sleep. I covered my mouth with my hand to stop myself from making any sounds.

My eyes were over flowing with tears. I called up a taxi that came quickly.

I shouldn't have came back.