You and Me

Chapter 10: I'm listening...

My journey to the spot was short. My hopes and dreams of being alone has been just a figment of my imagination since I got here. That being said you would know that my spot is taken. It isn't by a random person either.

"Josh? What are you doing here?" He left the party so mad that I couldn't find it in myself to be mean to him.

"Last I check this is a public spot." Snappy much? I took a seat next to him and just look out at the water.

"And my hiding place. It's not a good hiding place though. Considering the person, I am hiding from has started to come here as much as I do."

"Tough cookies." I had to laugh at that. Did he really just say that?

"You shouldn't have to hide from me, I wouldn't hurt you." I gave him a long stare. "Kind of controversial but you know what I mean."

"Do I?" It was his turn to give me a long stare. I had to give in because I knew better. He wouldn't hurt me. "I know what you mean."

"Either way you shouldn't be afraid you have a boyfriend." If only you knew he wasn't.

"Actually -"

"He is your fake boyfriend." He completed my sentence. Wait a minute he just completed my sentence.

"How did you know?"

"How dumb of you to ask that?" I should take offence but he is right. Josh may have been the school's favourite jock and pretty boy but he was never dumb. He could read anyone like they were an open book, it baffled me at times. The worst part is that was one of the reasons I fell for him all those years ago. I didn't have to explain myself to him, because he understood me.

"Its funny though. I thought maybe if I had a boyfriend you would leave me alone. Seeing you tonight with all that anger as you left the party made me worry."

I finally got what I wanted, which is to be a lone and I still am not happy. Is it that I was stuck in denial and didn't want to accept the fact that he could still have my heart? There is only one way to find out and that is by finally becoming a big girl and listen to what Josh has to say.

"I may regret this tomorrow but I'm living for today. Josh you said you love me and you've been on my case every minute you got. Tonight I am going to stop running and let you explain. Tomorrow however, I will treat you according to what you say tonight and I want the truth and nothing less."

I got comfortable as I could on the sand and wait on him to gather his thoughts and start talking.

Every second I am waiting I get more nervous. What could he possibly say to me?

"The truth... The truth is I broke my code. I was out with Benjamin and Eric and I got really drunk. All I knew after that is that I woke up in a strange place with Jenifer in the bed. I felt terrible and I hated myself for what I did."

Sadly, all I heard was that he cheated and it hurts.

"You deserved better and not someone who got so drunk off his ass that he didn't even know his name or how to run from the she-devil. I know betrayal is a no no on both our parts. I decided I should let you go and let you find someone more deserving. Plus I rather broke up with you than have Jennifer drag you into drama that I knew you'd rather avoid."

That is so sweet but why was he drunk. He never gets drunk. "Why were you drunk? Matter of fact, how did you get drunk?"

"The billion-dollar question. To make it short I'm going to assume someone slipped something in my drink. It seems logical since I only had one drink before everything got blurry. Also we both know I wouldn't touch Jennifer when I'm sober."

As funny as that sounds it is true. He didn't like her at all. It wasn't because she was a hoe. It was simply because she did whatever she needed to get what she wants and she doesn't care who she has to hurt to get it. It's like it was always a game for her and the fact that she was a hoe made him dislike her even more.

"Why didn't you just tell me that?"

"I live by a code and even if I had explained it you earlier and you had forgiven me. I could never accept your forgiveness without suffering the consequence first."

Why Josh? Why? Always so honourable. I believed him, Josh never lies. Well he doesn't tell lies like that.

"Josh it wasn't your fault. I wished you would have told me sooner. You broke me and the thing is I never stopped -"

Hold up there, missy. What the hell do you think you are doing?

It is like my lips have a mind of their own. I was just about to spill the fact that my torch for him never faded. I must be the most pathetic girl of the year.

One minute it is stay away from me and now he tells me this and I'm all I love you again. He may be good but I have to remember he broke my heart a year ago and didn't even have the guts to tell me why.

" Sienna were you about to say you didn't stop loving me?"

"It doesn't matter what I was about to say."

"Sienna were you about to say you didn't stop loving me? Because it does matter. It matters to me. You're thoughts are all that matters to me."

"Josh, let's just stop this. We are broken. There is no -"

"Don't say that. We still have a chance to fix us." The look in his eyes was very convincing. He believed in us that even I am starting to believe. The only thing is I don't think I want to believe.

I moved closer to him so that I was looking straight into his eyes. "Josh we can never get back to -" A girl can't even get to finish one sentence around here.

He pulled me in so quickly I fell on his chest. He then turned us so that I was lying on the sand. He leaned in catching me off guard as he kissed me. Before I could stop myself I started kissing him back and deepening the kiss as we went along.

I don't know when but the voice of reasoning chimed in and I pushed him off of me. I sat up and looked into his eyes and at that moment I knew that I Sienna Davidson had started to fall for Joshua Montgomery. Again.

I straddled him and just looked at him. Taking in every detail of his face that I suppressed the pass year.

"I don't know but somehow you were always very convincing to me. You've pulled me in but now you are going to have to work to keep me." That was all the confirmation he needed before pulling me down into a really intoxicating kiss.

Very unexpected turn of events but as I said earlier I live for today. But if I'm being honest with myself, it may go over into tomorrow.

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