You and Me

Chapter 11: I'm not ignoring you... Not entirely

It's been a week since that night on the beach. You'd think everything is all rainbows and unicorns but they're not. That night was wonderful and will forever be etched in my mind. However, one night of heart to heart can't change a whole year of my heart being broken.

He apologized and I believe it is sincere but I can't just go back to him because he decided that one year of suffering for him was enough. That I would just take him back after one year of pain he cost me? After one year that I've built up a wall to protect myself. I know that night a lot of things happened for the both of us. This isn't a fairy tale though. He can't use one night to mend the bridge and expect everything to go on like nothing ever happened.

I'm complicated and I know it. No one has to tell me that. I'm just trying to figure out if dating Josh really is the right thing to do.

Knock! Knock!

Ugh! The girls went out to get groceries with the guys so I have to get the door. Every time I'm in my dorm by myself someone has to stop by. It's like there is a sign on the door that I can't see that says, "Sienna's Home Alone. Please Knock on Her Door."

I was in some sweatpants I 'borrowed' from Nigel and a crop top. I swear I have to stop borrowing Nigel and Luke's stuff before they are forced to walk naked.

On the other side of the door was the boy who plagued my brain. The urge to slam the door in his face was pretty strong but I'm going to be nice and let him in.

I walked over to a bean bag and took a seat while he sat on the couch. We were silent and the awkward levels were through the roof. I was waiting for him to say something since he was the one that decided to come over to my dorm and ruin the quiet.

My walls must be fascinating because he was just staring at all the walls in here. I didn't know white walls were so intriguing.

He is wasting my time. He should know better than to waste my time. If he isn't going to talk well honey neither am I. I got up and went to my room to change. I'm not going to stay and listen to him breathe.

I quickly stripped out of my current outfit as I turned to grab my dark blue boyfriend jeans I see no other than Josh standing in my door way.

"What the F do you think you're doing? You can't just walk in my room like you own the place." So F'ing creepy. First he doesn't speak to me and then he just decides to watch me change.

"You're ignoring me." That's all he said. That just makes perfect sense to walk in on me changing. The F it doesn't.

"So that gave you the right to walk in on me? Are you out of your mind? You could have said that ten minutes ago!"

"You're ignoring me Sienna. I came over here because I want to know why?" Still think he could have done that ten minutes ago.

"You idiot. I'm not ignoring you... not entirely."

"Really!? You turn the other way every time you see me in public. You won't respond to my text or calls. I'm pretty sure that's what persons do when they are in fact ignoring someone." So, what if I am ignoring him. He clearly didn't get the message.

I blew out a puff of air. This is just too frustrating. "I love you, you idiot!!-" Bloody hell! he cut me off with a surprise kiss. I didn't hesitate to kiss him back. We stood there for who knows how long kissing. I didn't think we were ever going to stop kissing until I heard whistles which made me push him away.

"Oh My Gosh! Angel and Kristen you guys are unbelievable." This is so embarrassing.

And when things couldn't get worse this happened.