Visiting his grave with flowers had become tradition for me.
Everyday after work, I'd stop at the cute little flower shop not too far away from my building to buy a bouquet of white roses.
They were his favorite.
It's been three years.
Three years since I lost the love my life to cancer. My best friend and the father of my child. Three whole years and I'm still mourning...
"I wish you could come back."
"I keep telling myself that this is just a bad dream. That I'll wake up tomorrow and you'll be getting Tyler ready for school like you always do." The first tear rolled down my cheek as the memories came back.
"It's been three years Harry. I miss you. Tyler keeps asking about you and I don't know what to tell him." I sobbed, dropping to my knees.
"How do I tell a six year old that his father's dead? I can't."
"I can't do anything without you. You were always here to help me make decisions and you always knew what to do." I cried
"I'm lost."
Now that I think about it... I've never had to worry about anything when I was with Harry. He always worked hard to make sure that we were fine. He took such good care of Tyler and I...
FLASHBACK - four years ago
"Babe stop spinning him. He just ate."
A smile made its way onto my face as I watched my husband and my son laughing-nothing but pure joy radiating from both of them.
"He's fine Y/N. He's-"
His sentence was cut short when baby Tyler puked all over his face.
I couldn't help the laugh that escaped my lips. Tyler giggled as Harry slowly set him down on the mat.
"Told you."
"Oh shut up." He grumbled, walking off to the bathroom.
A few minutes later he came back, puke free, and sat beside me on the couch.
"I can't believe we made that." He smiled, looking down at Tyler, who was now busy playing with his toys.
"Yeah." I whispered, leaning my head onto his shoulder.
"And we're gonna make so much more."
"Yes we are baby."
PRESENT TIME...
"Remember I wouldn't kiss you after because you smelled like vomit?" I giggled softly.
"You wouldn't stop moaning and groaning."
Life is hard without Harry-and I don't mean financially. We've enough to last a lifetime...Harry made sure of that...
I miss having him around.
I just wish I had more time with him.
~♥~
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