One year.
It's been exactly one year since i've seen him. One year since i've heard him laugh, since i've stared into those green eyes of his, since I left him crying on his knees.
I should've stayed.
"I'm sorry. Please don't go." he pleaded, voice cracking. Throughout our year long relationship, i'd never seen Harry cry. Yet the moment the words left my mouth, he completely broke down. He was on his knees begging me to stay, his facade had finally fallen, but I didn't know what else to do.
So I ran.
"Y/N?" I snapped out of my daze when I heard crying.
Louis sat in front of me with a crying Gracie in his arms. She recently started teething and it's been absolute hell for me. I can't even tell when was the last time I got eight hours of sleep.
"She's crying again." Louis mumbled, patting her back in attempt to calm her down.
"No shit Sherlock," I rolled my eyes. "I left her teether keys in the car, I'll go get them."
Louis had practically dragged me out of my house this morning, claiming Gracie and I needed vitamin D. Vitamin D sure as hell wasn't going to stop me from choking her to death. Standing from the chair, I refrained from looking at the crying baby. I cry every time I see those green eyes and it doesn't matter how many sessions I go to or how many pills I swallow, I still get the urge to harm her.
Why does she have to look so much like him?
Sighing, I fished my keys out of my pocket and left the cafe. Though he's annoying, if it wasn't for Louis, Gracie would've probably been six feet under the earth already, leaving me in an asylum. I opened the car and retrieved the teether keys from the nappy bag.
It doesn't matter who she reminds me of, it's not right for me to have these thoughts. Taking a deep breath, I closed the car door and started making my way back to the cafe.
"Y/N? Is that you?" Its been a while since I heard that voice. In fact, I almost forgot how it sounded. My heart started beating faster just how my pace increased.
"Wait!" I could heard him running to catch up with me. Suddenly, he gripped my arm tightly and turned me around. He was with his friends, the ones I used to call my own and I was too ashamed to look any of them in the eyes.
"I have to go." I said in a shaky voice.
"No," he said, tightening his grip on my arm. "It's been a year. Why the hell did you leave? Out of nowhere with no explanation? I gave you everything!" Harry yelled. Tears began to blur my vision and I said I had to go again.
"Lad, let's go." Liam said, pulling the angry man away from me.
"Y/N?"
Seriously Louis? You couldn't just stay in the damn cafe?
Gracie was still crying and I just wanted to die when Harry's gaze shifted to Louis.
"The hospital just called. I have to go." he mumbled.
"Seriously?" Harry scoffed. "You left me for-"
"I'll see you later Lou." I took Gracie from his arms and walked off without sparing any of them another glance.
I just hoped Harry would leave Louis alone. He was never one for listening and poor Louis wasn't a fighter.
Strapping my crying daughter into her car seat, I practically shoved the teether into her mouth before I rushed to drive away from my past.
What the hell is he even doing here?
I left London to avoid ever running into him. Why is he in Hawaii?
By the time I got home it was 6 pm and Gracie was still crying. Without even realizing, tears started falling from my eyes.
Without much thought, I took her out of the car and rushed into the house.
I can't do this anymore.
I didn't want her to begin with. I should've gotten rid of her when I had the chance.
I scowled as she stared up at me with those green eyes i'd grown to hate. I removed the knife from the kitchen counter.
It's for the best.
"I'm sorry." I sobbed "I'm sorry I couldn't take care of you."
Her screams seemed to get louder in that moment and I longed for silence.
Caught up in the moment, I didn't hear when they rushed into the house. I just remember kicking and screaming as someone dragged me away from the demon that ruined my life.
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I was thinking about making a second part for this....but I can't be bothered so yes....this is how this one ends.
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