The Force of Love.

Chapter Eighteen

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P.S. The photo at the top is going to be their faces at the end of this chapter.😭
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Ben's POV-
I'm sitting on Rey's bed going over our plans with her one last time before we put them into action.
"Ok. So you request a personal meeting on the matters of me joining the dark side with Snoke, and then as your talking to him I sneak up behind him and kill him." Rey says running her hands through the ends of her hair over and over.
"Yes. And I'll practice blocking any thought of our relationship from my mind so he has no idea."
"And I'll work on masking my force presence so he has no idea when I come up behind him." She says with a smile.
"Wow Rey. I think this is going to work." I say smiling at her.
"Of course it will work!" She laughs and punches me in the arm.
"Let's go over the plan for getting the First Order to go along with the grey order." I say to her.
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"So then as the new leader of the First Order you will bring me to the resistance and hopefully Leia will understand why I have to become the new leader of the resistance if we are going to save the universe from tearing itself apart." Rey says to me.
I'm laying on her bed and she's laying on her back on my chest looking up at the ceiling.
"Of course my mom will understand. And anyways you always seemed like you were destined for leading the light. Ever since I first saw you I've been amazed at the attitude you keep. You have not a drop of darkness in your soul my beautiful Rey of sunshine." I say to her, and I kiss her cheek.

Rey's POV-
Ben seems so happy about the fact that I "have not a drop of darkness in my soul" I'm afraid to tell him he's wrong for fear of crushing his hopes. In truth I am just as equal parts light and dark as he is. The difference between us is he lets the dark shine through and I let the light shine through.
But behind his dark veil is a world of hope.
Behind my sunny outlook my inside is filled with fear and turmoil.
I wonder if he loves me enough to stay with me even though I'm that way. Maybe he only loves me because I am light. Maybe he only loves me because of who I pretend to be.
At that horrid thought I don't feel like laying with him anymore so I roll off his chest onto my feet and walk away from the bed towards the window were I look out at the stars.
I hear him sit up behind me and he asks in confusion,
"What was that about?"
"Nothing. I just think that maybe you should go back to your room." I say, my voice sharp and as cold as a snowstorm on Hoth.
"What? Why? Did I do something to make you mad? Let me fix it!" He says to me. Him caring about me like that is making it harder to be mad at him. But I need some alone time to think, so I channel my inner darkness and say to him,
"Ben.
You.
Need.
To.
Leave.
You are making me beyond angry, and I'm sick and tired of being with you.
Get.
Out."
As I turn to face him I internally hit myself in the face.
Great job Rey. You might as well break up with him here and now because you have hurt him deeper than anything ever has before. Don't think you can just take your words back you idiot.
You've wrecked any hope of happiness you ever had with him.
But there's no need to say anything more because he walks closer to me till I can feel his hot and jagged breath on my face.
"I don't know what's wrong with you, but I don't have to stay here and listen to your cruel words. I thought you loved me.
Rey this isn't love."
Then he turns on his heel and leaves my room hurriedly through the door that conjoins our rooms, slamming it behind him.
I rush after him, wanting to apologize for letting my darkness out, but Instead I just lean against the door and sink down to the floor. I start to sob, my head in my hands, body shaking with the force of each choked gasp.
What have I done?

Ben's POV-
I want to walk away from the door into my room, but instead I lean against it and sink down to the floor. My shoulders start to shake and I heave out wracked sobs.
My Rey of sunlight isn't shining anymore. I don't think she loves me. I think she hates me.
What did I do wrong?