when the world was at war before

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Jeffrey's POV

What I said on the trial was true, some of it. But I didn't kill him, he wasn't dead when I got there.
I had a lot of money, paying every single lawyer and doctor to cover up what happened, about Hunter's autopsy, everything.
Then leaving me broke, broke when I got out of jail. Leading me back to New York to find a job with my old friend Norman, but I didn't know that Carmen was working with him, or even moving back with him.
When I got out of jail I went to my old house, everything was gone. Only my clothes were all thrown out of the empty closet.
Including in Carmen's driveway stood another car, and an old couple chilling on the front lawn. It's like I lost everything, and I did.

  Now I'm in my recent house, Chinese takeout and pizza boxes along with empty wine bottles filled the awfully silent room. And I just sat on the couch, and beside me an invitation. A wedding invitation.
  Then a knock and a yell from the other side of the door broke the silence,
"Jeffrey?! It's John! Come on man, you're 3 months behind and haven't paid the rent yet! I'm going to give you 2 more days to pay or else I'll kick you out!" then steps faded,
  But I had in mind something. I love Carmen, but she doesn't belong to me. Might as well go.
Getting my car keys I exit my apartment and drive away.

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    Carmen's POV

"Oh my god" I heard someone say, turning around I see dad, crying.
"you look so beautiful"
    I chuckled, looking down at my dress,
  "Thanks dad" he walked towards me then hugged me, he hugged me so tight,
"you remind me of your mother, when we got married" he sobbed on my shoulder,
"aw dad, it's okay."  
  "no, it's not, I should've been there for your mother and- just, let's just forget. Today is your day and the only thing I should be crying about is when I break my diet eating the cupcakes"
   I chuckled, he then held my face, looking at my eyes,
"are you ready?" he said,
I took a deep breath and nodded,
"yes" smiling I walk out with my dad,
     

  I lied.

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   I was sitting in the car, right outside the church. Everyone was inside, my dad smoked, leaning on the car, he told me that I can go out whenever I was ready, every second he asks if I am I say "a few more seconds" I looked over to my right, out the window I could see further the open doors, people getting seated, Spencer talking to his best men, my bridesmaids were laughing and smiling, I don't want to ruin this, it would be selfish of me, and I'm not that person.
  
  I took a deep breath, I open the door and feel the clean air, making me feel sick,
  Dad nodded in approval to hold my hand, I smiled and hugged him, I want to cry, I want to disappear into thin air, Laura's kid ran outside towards me, along with Laura, she held my dress and he held my hand, could both feel my shaky sweaty hands? I hope not.
  I hear the music starting to play as we enter the building, I try not to look around as we do, I don't want to see people smiling, making me feel even more guilty.
  I see Spencer smiling,
Is that a tear? oh god, please don't, I don't want to see you cry, don't make this harder, please.
  I let out a small quiet shriek as my dad lets go of me, kissing my forehead, then holding Spence's hand, it's warm and friendly, but it's not making me stay.
  We look at each others eyes, his hazel eyes bring back memories, of when I first met him, back when I was falling apart and screaming inside for help, when I heard the gun shot close to my ear and his eyes looking at me, but those eyes turn into a darker shade of brown, a familiar haze that somehow heals my heart, I'm not holding Spencer's hand, looking up I see Jeffrey, he's not smiling, he's crying, it's a ugly cry that breaks my heart again, I hear echoes, but it's not his voice,
  "Carmen" I look up again, and I see Laura's kid holding the rings, I'm squeezing Spencer's hand, I let go as I feel my cheeks turning red.
  After a few moments I hear Spencer saying I do, my heart beats fast as the priest looks over me, repeating the same words he told Spencer, I look around, I feel my vision get blurry, I look over my dad, over to everyone, every face has a vignette filter, even Spencer's,
  I fake a smile,
"I d-"
    Spencer suddenly gets close to me, not letting me finish he whispers,
"I know you don't love me, Go, go with him, run"
"but Spencer I ca-"
"I want you to be happy, now go flower child, I love you"
  I stare into his eyes, they're turning red and watery, I hug him really tight, he does the same thing and kisses my forehead, I then run, I hear people gasping and screaming my name, my dad the loudest, but that doesn't stop me, I try not to look back.
I smile and run as I clench the note in my hand.

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