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chapter 43

DAY ONE
(Y/N POV)
In thirty-two days, Tyler Joseph was going off to college. And so was I. Two separate colleges, which was stressful. But we had agreed to keep our relationship just as perfect. I couldn't ever lose Tyler, no matter what.

Since he'd regained his memories, I'd been spending every waking minute with him. During the day we'd stay together, and at night we would fall asleep cuddled up together. I had to make sure to enjoy every moment because if anything happened, I needed to have been there for him.

To be honest I felt like Tyler thought the same things I did. He stuck close to me, barely leaving my side. He always volunteered to go with during quick errands and things I could easily do on my own.

I loved him so much.

College was scary. We'd both been accepted to our dream colleges and had a party, but we both knew that we'd be separated. "I'll call every day. Text. Video chat," we'd promised, and I knew we'd deliver on that. I was just scared.

School had brought us together. Music class, a love song, and a talent show. I didn't want it to be the same thing that tore us apart.

"Hi Tyler," I said sweetly, sitting by him and kissing his cheek. "How are you feeling?"

"Great. My head doesn't hurt today," he said, smiling at me. "And you always make me happy."

"Aw," I said. "Thank you. Are you hungry?" He nodded.

"You should make ramen. For all three of us. I made Josh buy some so you'd make it." I laughed a little bit.

"Fine, but only because I love you."

"And you're hungry."

"Yes, that too." He laughed and I headed towards the kitchen and began cooking.

To say that I was an amazing cook would be an amazing lie. I wasn't anything above average for sure, but for some reason Tyler and Josh found my meals irresistible.

I grabbed the ingredients from the cabinet as three people burst into the house. Josh, Liza, and Brendon. Oh, boy.

"Where's Sarah?" I asked as soon as they walked in.

"Well hello to you too," Brendon said, laughing. "She's at the dentist. So you have me!"

"And me," Liza chimed in, peeking out from behind Josh. "I'm here too."

"Well hey! It's been a while, hasn't it," I said, walking over to hug her.

"Um, wow, thanks for ignoring me," Brendon scoffed as I hugged Liza. I laughed and hugged him too. "I missed ya, kid."

"I missed you too," I said. "I made ramen for three, because I thought only Josh was coming. I'll add more if you want."

"Count me in!" Liza said, and Brendon agreed. The three of them sat down by Tyler and they were chatting away as I sat in the kitchen.

"So, college," Josh said, looking at Tyler. "I'm going to miss you and (Y/N)."

"We're going to miss you too," Tyler said, and I nodded. I really would miss Josh. He was like my brother that I'd never had and I loved him.

"I'm especially going to miss you, Tyler," I said. "Of course I'll miss all of you, but... it's going to be hard."

He looked at me with sadness in his eyes and a half smile on his face. Looking at him brought back so many memories and made me want to cry, but I held it together.

Sort of.

I ducked my head down and bit my lip, trying my absolute hardest not to burst into tears. I think he could tell because he walked over to me and hugged me tightly.

"I love you," I said quietly. He kissed the top of my head. Every day was like a countdown to the day I wouldn't be able to see him every day or cuddle him at night.

I still hadn't brought myself to talking about it.

When he'd announced that he's been accepted to his dream college, of course we were all happy. But a part of me was upset. Not because he got in. I was amazingly proud. But because I didn't want us to be torn apart.

Josh, Liza, Brendon, Sarah, Tyler and I had all crowded around his computer as he opened the email that would change his life.

"Congratulations, Tyler Joseph, you've been accepted..."

We all screamed and hugged him, jumping up and down. We'd done the same for me afterward. It was kind of a tradition between us and it was amazing. We'd all gotten in. We were going to be adults, we were going to get a job, we were going to live our dreams.

But I wanted to live mine with Tyler.

What I hadn't told anyone was that I'd applied to the same college as Tyler, and I'd gotten in. I wanted to go to be with him, but I also didn't want to give up on my future...

"Whatcha thinking about?" Tyler asked, looking at me. I snapped out of my trance.

"Oh! Oh, nothing," I answered. "Nothing big."

"Well you know you can always talk to me," he said. I smiled and nodded at him, and I knew.

I just didn't know how to say it.

A/N: so sorry I didn't update sooner. i've been swamped with school and writers block.