Her Highness h.s

Chapter 30 ( Untouchable Dream )

Song for this chapter;

Never let me go- Florence and the machine

( TVD LOVERS KNOWS THIS SONG FOR SURE )

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The sound of a constant ticking clock that's hanging on my wall, fills my ears. Despite the clock, it's pretty quiet in my house. I can hear my own breathing as I think about past things I've done. The silence is soon broken by the sound of my phone beeping.

I slide the lock open.

*I'm gonna miss you so much, it's pity you had school work and we couldn't see each others but we can always rain check. I'll be away the whole week. Love you. * From Jess (13.43)

I look blankly at the text, well at least, I get a break from her. Even if it's for a week. Inhale deeply and put my hands on my hips, thinking about how did I ever got myself into this mess.

*I'm gonna miss you, too. x* Sent to Jess (13.50)

I reply her back and clench my jaw.

I shouldn't be lying, but what can I do?

I know I'll end up hurting her, me and most of all, Lilly. This is getting out of my hands, I've always had things in control but now, I seriously feel like I've been hit by a buss and can't seem to get up.

The worst part is that I can't even stay away from Lilly and I know she feels the same for me even though she finds it extremely hard to admit. I can tell by the way she holds an eye contact with me, warming me up from inside. I know that denying the attraction between Lilly and I, would be the optimal option, but it's not definitely the easiest one. Once you realize how you feel about a person, it breaks you inside as you have to hide it. It crashes your insides, wanting to be saved by her.

I rub my eyes, screaming from the top of my lungs, not being able to bare any of this pain I feel in my heart.

"Harry!?" Gemma yells from the living room, and it's not long after I hear her coming to my room.

She steps in carefully, walking on her toes. She furrows her eyebrows and shakes her head, seeing how much of a mess I am.

"Are you okay?"

I inhale deeply, throwing my head back as I go for dramatic pause before I mutter;

"No."

She glares at me, waiting for me to explain myself. Instead I just scream again, making her jolt a little.

"We both received beauty, but I guess I was the only one who reached the intelligence," She snaps and tries to be funny, when we all know i'm the funny one in our family.

I mean have you heard my jokes?

"Ha-ha." I fake smile.

"No, seriously what's wrong with you?" She asks me, lifting her eyebrow. She's done something with her hair again. It's blonde again.

She snaps her fingers in front of me, waking me up from my thoughts.

"What do you want?"

"Does this have something to do with girls?" A dimpled smirks plays on her lips, which very similiar to mine.

"No."

She shoots me a glare.

"Okay. Yes." I can't lie to her. I've never even been good at lying, expect lying to Jess was easy because I had no choice.

"So?"

"Well..."

...

I tell her everything from the beggining till the end and she keeps nodding and gaping at me through my every sentence.

"Wow," She mutters, her eyes wide open, "You've got yourself into a quite mess."

"You don't say," I roll my eyes and sigh.

She was no help at all. I sit down on my bed and run my fingers through my hair, I really should get a haircut. My hair is getting too long.

"You really should cut your hair," She remarks and points at my messy hair.

I shoot her a glare which makes her laugh.

"Have you thought that maybe she is lying?"

"Who?" I ask her and raise my head to get a better view of her.

"Jess," She spits, as if the word tasted awful on her tongue.

"I don't know, I mean why would she do that?"

"Girls are crazy."

I don't think she's lying, it just doesn't make sense why she would lie.

Gemma shrugs her shoulders and leaves the room. I lay on my back on the bed, folding my arms behind my neck.

I haven't even told my mum that I'm expecting a baby, I mean not me but Jess. It's the same thing though. I'm not even ready for it.

I close my door, not bothering to lock it.

I can't help but think about Lilly's pretty face, when she tries to hold herself from smiling, but ends up smiling like an angel fallen from above. I wish we could get lost in our own world, just her and I. I could kiss her when ever I'd want to, even reminiscing the taste of her lips sends chills down my spine. Our hands perfectly entwined, which have a peculiar way of fitting together. The long hair that she keeps on ponytail , revealing the back of her neck that I feel myself getting attached to, every time I'm near her.

And last but not least, every time it would rain, I would sing her lullabies, making sure she gets to sleep peacefully.

I wish I could put this untouchable dream of mine into a frame, not wanting to give up on it.

I force myself up and get out of my tight jeans. I still have time until Lilly comes. I told her to come at five and it's only half three.

I jump into my bed, wearing nothing at all.I only enjoyed sleeping when I didn't have any clothes on.

I cover myself with my sheets and close my eyes. I should get some sleep to calm my nerves.

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