All my love

Ersatz

I used to think I wanted someone who wanted to die for me, but maybe I needed someone who would live for me. Especially since I'm dying. I wasn't dying in a literal sense, but sitting in this hospital bed alone surely did feel like I was. Not to mention my head was pounding repetitively, as if something was inside begging to be released.

They said that would be one of the side affects when talking to my parents. I was in an accident- wasn't looking while crossing the street and apparently the guy in the car wasn't looking either. My head shattered their window and I passed out- not sure how I got to the hospital yet. The doctors said I've been in a coma for over a month and they were very surprised that I woke up. Along with headaches, they forewarned my parents of vomiting, hallucinations, and a persistent itch on the spot of my head they had bandages wrapped around. I was told not to scratch the spot but it was becoming increasingly harder- especially when I thought about it. There was another side affect of the accident but it didn't come to mind.

"Rémy?" A female voice called out softly. My eyebrow raised at the dark haired girl standing at the foot of the bed. I was apparently so deep into thought that I didn't hear the opening and closing of the heavy door followed by the clicking of heels. The same clicking I heard as the woman moved from the end of to the side of the hospital bed. "I'm sorry I didn't visit you before."

Memory loss.

"Wh-who are you?" I stuttered out cautiously. To my surprise, instead of shock or horror, she spread her lips into a smile and assured me that I would know soon enough. Guilt seeped into me the longer I studied her face and came up with no connection. "I really can't remember you."

The woman tilted her head to the side and pulled her lip down in a pout. Despite her being a stranger I couldn't deny it was quite adorable. "I know we haven't seen each other in a while but I thought you'd find me a bit familiar" she straightened her head again and stared at me intently.

I studied her more carefully. Her green eyes bore into mine and her dark, thick eyelashes fanned across her fair skin when she blinked. The constellation of freckles sprinkled across her cheeks stood out adorably against her pale complexion. Sitting on her plush upper lip, she had a scar slashing its way across. Nothing stood out as familiar but I did notice she was extremely pretty.

My eyes met hers once more and her cheeks flamed as she muttered a shy 'thanks'. My cheeks soon followed in her pursuit as I realized I said that last comment out loud.

"Genevieve, by the way, my name is Genevieve" the girl announced as the recovering blush faded so very slowly. I stared quite blatantly obviously, but she didn't seem to mind. I admired the smile stretched across her face and the way she worried it with her teeth after I stared just a bit too long. Meeting her eyes again I realized how quiet it was in the slightly awkward atmosphere.

"Very pretty, like you Gen" I offered into the silence. Seconds after it left my mouth I regretted it very much. "Wait I, uh, I'm sorry".

I avoided eye contact for the next few minutes of silence until a short nervous laughter escaped the womens' mouth. "It's fine, really, what girl doesn't love compliments from such an attractive guy?"

I could have focused on her smile, or her newly found adorable laughter, but my mind was too busy doing backflips while playing the 'attractive guy' part of her comment on repeat. I noticed my cheeks were extremely red as I replied a short, breathy 'thanks'. I was about to make a retort when a short beep sounded from the desk beside me. With a glance over I saw my alarm going off and noticed the time. My eyes widened a fraction as I realized it was way past visiting hours.

"You've got to leave, soon" I told her quietly- as if now that I knew of the time we would be caught. "It's way past visiting hours- I'm surprised you haven't gotten caught yet!"

Genevieve giggled at my exclamations. "I don't think I'll be much of a bother to any nurses" she added teasingly. After once glance into my pleading eyes, she admitted defeat and stood. "If you please to be alone, however, I won't deny your wishes. Goodbye Rém, hope to see you again". Genevieve shot me a small smile and a half wave before she completely left the room.

"Bye Gen" I announced softly, despite the fact that she was far gone already. I couldn't hold back the dreamy sigh and smile as I looked to the ceiling. If I knew attractive girls would be visiting me I would have gotten into an accident long ago.

That night I slept soundly despite the headache pounding in my skull. I also skillfully avoided the uneasy feelings she brought upon. I couldn't give a name to the face but I knew she looked slightly familiar. Those green eyes caught my attention for more than one reason. I couldn't help but to think if I've looked into those orbs before or if the grassy hue just brought upon a sense of familiarity. However, putting all doubts to the side, she made me happy. Even if it were only for the moment, it was an emotion that's had an absence in my heart for way too long and it's ready to be filled.
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I literally just wrote this in the past like hour, oops. I'm not checking for spelling or grammar.

There will definitely be more and I might unpublish this for a moment if I need to edit something for future chapters.

I think this is going to be the book that I write a full version of and maybe publish... I have a plan that I don't feel like explaining but around this time next year I'll definitely have a book published and it might be this plot.

I've had a bit of a writers block for a few days but I think I got it figured out... hopefully. I only have like a year to write a full book out of this.

Also I didn't study for the test I have tomorrow so I'm definitely gonna fail it which like isn't ok bc I like good grades but like is ok bc I got somewhere in my writing and I have A's anyways. I'm more worried about the English project that I did not finish that may or may not be due tomorrow.

Anyways
Ily- Lizzy
I really need to make like a banner or something.