Ella's POV
It hurts doesn't it? Falling in love with somebody that is in love with someone that isn't you. I know it hurts, I've been through it. Twice.
Before Shannon, well of course, I was in a relationship. Her name was Sandra and actually she was exactly like Shannon. She was too careful not to hurt me cause she would hate herself is she would do that. I knew she was in love with someone else. And of course I wasn't mad at her.
Love doesn't let you chose.
Love mades the decision for you. Always.
Just like Shannon. Shannon was the special one, she was the one for me, I really thought she was. Her last relationship was almost 4 years ago and she was too broken to trust somebody else and let them come into her life. Well she did with me, I know she hasn't or won't regret it. I know she liked me and I know she liked being with me.
She liked me. She liked our moments.
She didn't love me. She didn't love our moments.
She tried to hide the fact that her love for Cari had came all the way back, I think that she didn't even know that she was still in love with Cari and I also don't think that she had ever fallen out of love. Cari has many more than me. A great personality, a kind heart and always know what is the right thing to do.
Cari is in love with Shannon too. I can see it clearly now, I can see it in the way she is always looking at us when we're together and how Shannon will stop doing what she was doing with me cause she felt bad or awkward or even uncomfortable with Cari watching us.
I also know something happened between them last week when she was baby sitting Claire. Shannon never ignores my calls or leaves me alone in her house. I asked Vanessa and she said that they just had a fight. She won't betray her best friend by telling me that something more happened.
I tried to ignore my thoughts about Shannon falling back in love with Cari, I was sure my mind was playing games with me and making the story repeat itself. I was sure I couldn't deal with another heartbreak. I thought that I was just afraid that every relationship I make will be the same.
And it's true. The heartbreak is worse this time. God, I was certain that Shannon was the one. But I should have known better. There was no way to have a future with Shannon while Cari was here and she was -now- single.
I don't want to be mad with Shannon, I wasn't mad when Sandra was in love wih someone else. I'm not mad with Shannon either but I envy Cari you know? She will always love her just like Cari will always love Shannon. They are meant to be.
Cari doesn't like me and I don't expect her to like me. She has the right to despite me, well I was in a relationship with her girl. She isn't good in hiding it, I don't blame her.
But I like Cari. She is sweet and as long as she takes good care of Shannon I'll always like her. I want them to be together again so they will be happy again.
And I'll find happiness too. Every person has the right to be happy, I know I'll be happy one day.
I just can't seem to stop falling in love with people that are already in love.
Meghan's POV
I can't stand this shit. Ever since Cari came back to Los Angeles, Shannon will either be crying or be locked up in her old room and being too busy with her negative thoughts about everything that was going on.
She hasn't gone back to her house, she said that she can't stand being there alone after all this shit and she needed some company to help her get through this. Of course we wouldn't say no but she clearly hasn't use our help or company. She just sits in there.
