yøung førever ~ (sequel to RyroRoss⚡️ is typing/ryden)✔️

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!warning! Self harm ,,,, and northern Downpour

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Clay was asleep, I was awake.

Why can't he just come home, why is this so hard for me?

I shakily reached into the medicine cabinet and grabbed out my last razor.

I took in a deep breath before I began to hum a tune.

"If all our life is but a dream, fantastic posing greed and we should feed our jewelry to the sea." I quietly sang the lyrics to the song Brendon and I had written.

It was for Clay, we would always sing it for him before he went to bed.

Now I had to do that on my own.

I placed the razor to my skin and pressed it down. I winced in pain as I felt my skin break.

I felt my back pocket vibrate and I stopped what I was doing dropped my razor and reached for my phone.

The contact read: HAyHAyley

I answered the phone feeling my breath become uneven.

"H-hey," I said taking a deep breath.

"Hey Ryan. What's up? I thought I would check in since Bden isn't there." I nodded before realizing she couldn't see me.

"I'm doing great." I squeaked out.

"Ry?" I didn't want to tell her.

"It's nothing." I hung up the phone before placing the razor back onto my skin.

"-for diamonds do appear to be, just like broken glass to me."

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A/N
Geesus sorry:/
I hate written self harm scenes bc they make me sick
Anyways here's a fun story:
today bc of a schedule mess up our class had PE twice which like I'm not complaining but we missed double art anyways I decided since there aren't many ppl who want to play competitive basketball then I'll volunteer bc the fren I normally talk about was saying he wanted to so I was the only girl until some other girls said they would too but ppl where like: go paloma yah! And yep but sofia and haven didn't say they wanted to so I was alone but they yelled something to me from across the gym and I couldn't really hear them and I thought they said: "we made a basket" so I said yay and clapped but then I heard the guitar rift for Uma Thurman and I actually screamed and the entire time I was jumping around screaming the lyrics and at one point I got passed to and I didn't know what to do and I think I shot it and made the basket but they actually said: this is Uma Thurman!
So yeah
•Song Suggestion•: Uma Thurman by Fall Out Boy
•Fanfic Suggestion•: Nightmare | Ryden by oneandlonely47 this Fanfic is super good and super creepy honestly but I love it all their stuff it great check it out but this Fanfic honestly makes me so stressed about what's gonna happen next but it's SO GOOD!!
Anyways

~enjoy killjoys~