Kareena's POV:
Maxi and I have been doing well.
Very well.
He's cleaning up. I'm calming down. We're happy.
Samie isn't around anymore.
Oh, they're still 'dating.' Or, they have as much of a relationship as you could with a recovering drug addict who is living with the girl he's cheating on you with, which just so happens to be your bestfriend's bestfriend.
Isn't life a beautiful tangled mess of imperfection and mistakes?
Double-takes and love. Lust and illusions.
We can really honestly be anything we want in this life, so why choose something normal? Why choose something easy, common, boring, predictable?
I personally think there is beauty in chaos. I really can never express how I truly and honestly feel about life, but I'll try. Isn't it supposed to be one giant mass of what-ifs, breaking curfew, tickets, love, midnight kisses, cuddles, good friends, and video games? Junk food, chick flicks, sweatpants? A good book, the sound of rain.
Really, sit back and enjoy this shit. The small things add up, and end up being the things you remember most.
I want to be able to sit down with my kids and show them doodles of ninjas I made in math class, chalk drawings I've created with friends, letters to old loves, my horrible hair cuts and tight pants.
And hopefully, their daddy's music.
Max and I with a family?
Pure bliss.
Beauty.
Blessing.
"Baby?" He angelic voice cut through my mind.
"Yeah?" I answered
"Whatcha thinking about?" He asked sweetly, an adorable smile on his face.
"The little things." I sighed dreamily.
"Is it weird that I know exactly what you mean?" He asked smiling and scooting me closer to him on the bed.
"It's perfectly imperfect. All you. All me." I smiled.
"Bliss, chalk, guitars, and great pairs of headphones?" He asked
"Yup. Waffles, microwaves, TV, sneakers, laces, and a comfy pair of socks." I laughed
"New bracelets, sleepy smiles, waking up, cloudy days, paint?" He gripped me a little tighter.
"Love, hate, anger, heels, skirts, pants that make you look good, tree houses, and lucky lighters." I smiled and closed my eyes.
He gets it, that's all that matters.
But I'm asking you guys, no. Telling you, to take a step back.
Press pause.
Hug you're sister, brother, mom, dad, aunt, uncle, friend, dog. Anything, tell them you love them.
Mean it.
Think clearly. Find the thing's you love most.
The small things: good perfume, worn down shoes, huge sweatshirts, a favorite brush, tasty lip gloss, a good flat iron. Write them down, seal it up. Keep it close to your heart, these things make you.
Not the material itself, but what you like. The things that make you smile, or jump up and down with excitement, the things that make you victory dance, or sing when you think no one is listening.
Just please, enjoy the little things.
A small talk with your crush, brushing his/her hand. Laughing with them, smiling, eye contact. Blushing, butterflies.
Everything.
And if you're lucky enough to find a good friend, or a boy/girl to love, LOVE them. Treat them right, argue. Hang out. Dance, sing and make a fool of your self.
You. Only. Live. Once.
Make the most of it.
"Max?" I asked.
"Hmm?" He answered half asleep.
"You awake?" I giggled.
Enjoy every giggle.
"Of course." He laughed
Every Facebook post.
"Wanna do something?" I asked
Every stupid Facebook 'like'
"Like what?" He asked, making a goofy face.
Every good picture you take.
"Disney movies!" I yelled excitedly.
Every Disney movie :)
"But of course love." He smiled and walked to the living room with me. We cuddled onto the couch and watched The Little Mermaid. There is something so amazing about this movie, words can't describe. I have the best memories with this movie. Ones I'll never be able to repeat, and actually make sense of them.
Love those memories. Cherish them, and never let go. Fall in love, don't be afraid, and LEARN from everything that happens to you. Pass on your knowledge and be yourself. Make a difference and do what you want. Life is yours. DO WHAT YOU WANT.
"Max, I love you. I hate you. I want you, I need you. I want you to need me and need you to want me. You are my everything, and I'm glad for this moment right here." I smiled and pecked his lips.
"Reena, I hate loving you. I love when you hate me. I hate when you're angry, but love when you need me. I want you, and I breathe you in every chance I get." He said to me, eye contact. The whole time.
"Peanut butter and jelly. Would you want to have a family with me?" I asked
"I would love you in my future. I would love my future to be surrounded by you." He answered.
"I'm excited for your band." I said
"It'll be the biggest band in the world. I truly believe this is it, my all." He answered.
"We aren't normal, are we?" I asked.
He just smirked, and kissed me.
That's all the answers I'll ever need. No worries, no drugs, no Samie, no drama. Just love. Just him. Only me.
Our all. Our lives. The beauty in the chaos. All we've ever needed. Right here, in this room. In this moment.
We just had to slow down. Laugh, hurt, cry, lie, chill, breathe, relax. And enjoy life a little.
Only then will you know. Only then can you learn and love.
Throw up and enjoy the ride. It's only just begun.
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THE END!!
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Pause, if you dropped dead tomorrow at noon, what would you do before then? Say? Not say? Take back? Go? Answer in the comments. I honestly care.
-Love, Hugs, and other Drugs-
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