Aaronica - Forever in my heart ♥️

eighteen - smile

veronica
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I don't know why people would say such mean things. When Aaron left yesterday I felt cold and alone.

He had given me so much comfort in that time of sadness. I lay in my bed thinking when I smell pancakes.

I rush out to the kitchen, and Immediately throw up in the sink.

My head starts spinning and i feel someone's hands around me.

Nessa takes me back to my room and lays me down. "Your sick Roni, I'll bring you pancakes, you stay here and rest." She smiles, and leaves the room.

I feel alone again.

I pick up my phone and text Aaron.

Hey I'm sick do you think you could come over and we could watch a movie or something? xx

I quickly get a response.

Best boyfriend ever 😍
I'll be right there beautiful. I love you. Xx

Aw. I love him. He is the best boyfriend I ever could have asked for.

Ten minutes later he comes into my room smiling.

"Aaron!" I smile, sitting up to hug him.

"How you feeling?" He brings out a box of gushers.

"Desperate times call for desperate measures." He laughs, noticing me looking.

I pat the bed and he jumps on, leaning against the headboard.

"What do you want to watch handsome?" I ask, handing him the remote to choose on Netflix.

"Whatever you want princess." He smiles.

"Am I equally and beautiful and princessy as princess gorgeous?" I ask with a puppy face.

"Yes. But don't tell her that." We both laugh.

I pick a random movie and cuddle into Aaron's chest. He rests his head on my head and wraps his arm around my shoulder.

Before I know it I'm asleep.

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I feel Aaron moving from beside me and before I know it he is gone. I open my eyes slowly to see he isn't next to me any more. The cold feeling overwhelms me.

I start to shake, feeling as though ice is seeping it's way through my body, I pull the covers over me to keep me warm but I doesn't work.

I decide to go out to find him.

I stand up but my legs give out and I end up on the floor. Tears flow out of my eyes I just want him back.

I need to control this feeling but I can't. I have no control over what is actually happening.

And what that is I don't know.

Aaron walks back into the room and finds me lying on the ground shivering.

"Roni!" He screams, panic in his voice. He picks me up and holds me in his arms. Laying me back on the bed.

He lays beside me and hugs me, making the cold feeling escape and heat revisit me.

I breathe out a breath of air I didn't realize I was holding, and start to cry.

"Aaron I felt cold, and I couldn't control it, I was shaking and felt like I couldn't breath, and it was when you left Aaron what is happening?" I cry.

"Shh it's okay I'm here now. Just breath."

So I do. In and out, in and out.

"There it is." He grins.

"What?"

"Your beautiful smile."

So idk what a panic attack actually feels like bc I've never had one but my friends have and this is what I think it would feel like, this is just a representation of how much she needs Aaron in her life :) xx love you allll