Silent Cries: My True Life Story

SILENT CRIES: The Life of Sherrie Cobb

          

After that experience I changed I started sneaking out I started lying skipping school hanging round the wrong crowds I was just doing the most. My mom came home, and I reunited with her and my sisters I started staying over her house on the weekends. I loved it I had so much more freedom I could go places do things I didn't have to act like a nerd around them. Almost instantly me and my oldest sister clicked I really looked up to her she was my role model. Me and My other sister really didn't get along at first, but we loved each other the same I also looked up to her she was just so mean. During the summertime I met a guy my first boyfriend I was going to teen parties and all you would know when I was in the building because I was always in the floor dancing I loved dancing so much and everybody loved to see me do it. I was so young but so mature. I was moving way to fast I was drinking staying over boys houses I was even having sex. Which surprised me because after me getting raped I hated guys. At the age of 15 I was sneaking in and out of this guy's house I thought he loved me he said he did, did he? Here I am 15 and strung out on this guy like a Fein strung out on dope. I went thru the abuse the disrespect and the embarrassment just because he showed interest and acted like he cared. 15 and pregnant no job don't know what to do helpless. My real mom back in jail my dad giving up on me but as always, my step mom and oldest step brother stepped in he was like my second dad they took me to doctors' appointments made sure I stayed healthy or at least they tried to. I thought I was over the guy until he showed back up he cried to me about wanting his family and I believed him so like a dummy I ran away again. Back to the abuse the disrespect and embarrassment I can't blame nobody but myself a man can only do what you allow them to do. I found myself barely eating not taking prenatal vitamins missing my doctor appointments and not taking care myself or unborn at all. At 6 months my water broke, and I went into labor scared with nobody to turn to I was alone not even the man who claimed he loved me and wanted his family I burned my bridges with my step mom dad and brothers. My big sister was there every step of the way 22 days of labor she stayed with me in the hospital 21 days until she went out of town, but she was right back up there her and my other sister. July 22, 2002, I had a beautiful 3lb 11oz baby girl Miss Nyasia Burke. WHAT WAS I DOING I DIDN'T KNOW THE FIRST THING ABOUT BEING SOMEONES MOTHER.  My baby had to stay in the hospital 3 months before she could leave it crushed me to walk out that hospital with out her. 16 years old and a mommy. Out of the hospital and back to my child fathers house it was like he had a spell on me when our daughter came home from the hospital his mom did what she could he did just enough, but his oldest sister was my backbone she really helped me a lot my daughter stayed with her mostly.  I was young and didn't know anything about raising a child which that was no excuse even though I made it one. I was selfish I still wanted to run the streets I wanted to live life. What I was supposed to do was give that all up to raise my child.