Silent Cries: My True Life Story

SILENT CRIES: The Life of Sherrie Cobb

Let me tell y'all about these niggas see they will bring you down in every way if you allow them to. Now I'm not going to say that all men are dogs but ima tell you why mine turned out to be. See after I got raped I felt unwanted unloved I felt alone. I was young I didn't know what was going on I often sat and wondered would my life had been different if this didn't happen to me? Why did he do this to me? Every time I think about what I endured I break down it hurtled so bad I tried to stop him, but he just wouldn't stop. Him on top of me ripping my insides out smelling like cologne and colt 45... Ughhhhh sweat dripping on me as he took my virginity as he took my pride. I HATE HIM HE RUINED ME I SUFFERED NOT HIM ITS NOT FAIR. I WANTED REVENGE I WANTED TO KILL HIM I WANTED HIM TO DIE. I know things happen in life that is out of our control, but you can't let that be a distraction you can't let that be an excuse ITS LIFE SHIT HAPPENS not saying that it was right but.... Let me explain see I took me getting raped and I let It change the way I felt and carried myself I just wanted to feel loved I learned that your weakness will be your downfall every time. I have a past and nope I'm not ashamed to admit it I done been with Tom Dick and Harry trying to find love trying to feel wanted after getting the same actions from these men I then knew I WAS THE PROBLEM. I gave them too much to early I GAVE THEM ME WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING THEM I showed them my weakness I let them in I trusted them with my life IT WAS MY FAULT. I gave them all of me when they didn't deserve not one piece of me. I wore the weight of what I went thru on my shoulders for a while which made me wear my heart on my sleeves. I just wanted security out of all the men I've been with I can't say I loved them I mean I liked them, but it wasn't any loved involved and I say this to say HOW COULD I BEGIN TO LOVE ANOTHER WHEN I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO LOVE MYSELF WHAT WAS I DOING?!?