Silent Cries: My True Life Story

SILENT CRIES: The Story of Sherrie Cobb

My baby father eventually got in contact with me from jail. He said he was sorry and he didn't want to lose his family...SAME SAD LOVE SONG!!!! He also told me it was my fault too not just his and you know what as funny as it may sound I couldn't help but to believe he was right. See I knew what kind of lifestyle he was into when I met him. It was my choice right then and there to ride with him or let him go, and I choose to ride. But let's go back and think about what I put myself through while I was trying to prove I was a rider. A rider is someone who is there for you through whatever someone who has your best interest at heart someone who is there to catch you when you fall and most defiantly someone that you can trust with your life... YEA I WAS A RIDER I JUST HAD THE WRONG MOTHERFUCKER DRIVING.... I realized I was just plain dumb for this man I allowed him to use and abuse me I allowed him to belittle me I was his puppet doll HE PULLED MY STRINGS AND CONTROLLED MY EVERY MOVEMENT. Everybody used to praise us I LOVE YALL RELATIONSHIP, I WISH I HAD A NIGGA LIKE YOURS, YOU SPOILED GIRL ETC.... In my head I'm thinking I HATE MY RELATIONSHIP, WHY DID I FALL FOR A NIGGA LIKE HIM? WHEN WILL THE GUILT GIFTS END? Don't get me wrong he paid all the bills made sure me and all the kids were good anything I wanted I got I was sent shopping daily nail shop every 2 weeks car the latest shoes and clothes AND I DIDNT HAVE TO PAY FOR NOTHING OR DID I? Let me explain ... Even though he did all these things I was paying for it see he came in and I didn't have to do anything but what he told me to I MEAN HE HANDICAPED ME when I say this I mean he made me dependent on him I GOT SO USE TO WHAT HE WAS DOING FOR ME THAT I DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT HE WAS DOING TO ME. I had to come to reality I learned from that situation I NEVER WANT TO BE SPOON FED AGAIN. This man new that as long as he was doing for me that he could do anything he wanted to me, lets take it back to that Friday 10:00 pm I blew his phone up no answer only texts 3:00 am he still not home I called just to check on him I was worried no answer or text. 7:00 am he comes turning the key comes upstairs take shoes off and cuddle up behind me. I didn't even ask where he was MY DUMBASS WAS JUST HAPPY THAT HE WAS HOME. HE STARTED TO KISS AND HUG ON ME HE WANTED SEX AND I HAD TO GIVE IT TO HIM. He started touching on me and I'm touching on him as I start kissing on him I couldn't help but to stop he smelled like condoms and cheap perfume. I got up walked out the room he followed and said OH I CAN'T GET NO ASS YOU MUST BE FUCKING AROUND SO WHO YOU ARE YOU FUCKING SHERRIE HUH BITCH... I was shocked this man stayed out all night fucking now came home to fight. We fought so hard that morning that the neighbor called the police. He left before they got there but he came back that night. 2:00 am I'm in my bed sleep only one of my sons was there in his room sleep with my cousin I woke up because I heard the bed squeaking I go to the door and knock I SAID BITCH I KNOW YOU AINT FUCKING WITH MY SON IN THE BED WITH YOU. THAT BITCH WAS TRIFLING. Her company left but only I didn't hear nobody go downstairs and out the door. I woke my son up and made him get in bed with me the window in the room they were in was open so I'm guessing that's how her company left. The next morning when I woke up she was outside I started cleaning up my house while my son was still sleep. As I cleaned up the room she slept in I went to fix the bed condom wrappers on floor and window seal she so fucking trifling I hate her is all I could say. When I was done I went to take trash out the neighbor say GIRL YOU KNOW YOUR BABY DADDY WAS WATCHING YOUR HOUSE LAST NIGHT SHE SAID YEA GIRL I WAS COMING IN AND HE WAS ON THE ROOF AT THAT WINDOW (HER POINTING UP AT MY SON ROOM) She said I thought you didn't know because he climbed in and about 30 minutes later he climbed out. All I could say is he crazy girl but thank you!!