Hide & Seek | PJM | (On HIATUS)

Chapter 9

She's finally waking up. All tied up in my bed still not aware of her surroundings and the situation itself. I stand near the bed looking right at her. Almost through her. After a short while she's fully awake. Looking around like crazy. She looks so helpless. All tied up lying on the bed crying, hair sprawled on her wet face, starting to panic. There's no one here to help her.

"W-what are you doing?" she asks between her sobs. I purse my lips together and tilt my head to the side. Something just clicks in me when I see helpless creatures. I turn into a cold-blooded killer without a soul. Without emotion. Just void. It satisfies me like a hungry wolf. I look at her emotionless and I see myself in her frightened eyes. It's not human. Just a body with a programmed machine in my head that repeats the same sentence 'kill to live'. To live for what? For who?

She's squirming, trying to get loose from the ropes but with no use. She's just getting more bruises from the tight ropes that she's fighting.
"No use." I speak. She just looks at me confused.
"W-what?"
"You're no use." I say still looking at her.
"No hide and seek today, sweetheart. Just you and me. You will listen to what I say.. You won't say a word. Listen carefully." I say calmly. She just nods vigorously. I take a seat on the bed next to her squirming body. Gently push her hair out of her face, she flinches when I do that. I gulp, close my eyes and take a deep breath.

"My brother was just 17 when he killed himself. You know why? It's funny actually." I say letting out a small chuckle. Looking down at the bed sheets then back at her.
"He took his own life because of a girl. She ridiculed him, she broke him, she embarrassed him and then killed him. You know..I never told anyone this.. Even my pretty doctor. You're special, though." I wiped her tears away with my thumb.

"I went crazy. Literally. My parents had to lock me up  diagnosing me with mental illness. I had to stay there for 3 years. I didn't even go to his funeral.. I was so hurt. So hurt. I wanted to take my own life away. And believe me I was seriously contemplating it. There were deaths every day. Maybe they couldn't take the presure of their own minds. I often asked myself why do people hurt themselves. But when I didn't get the answer to that I taught myself to ask a new question. You wanna know?"

I looked deep into her eyes. She was crying but despite that she nodded again. I was pleased so I gave her a small smile.

"Why do people hurt others? But then again why can't we? So I made a promise to my little brother.. I said to him that when I get out of this place I will bring him every girl he could possibly want. I would bring him all the ladies who wouldn't treat him like the previous girls did. So he would be happy up there watching over me with all the little ones in the world. So let me ask you. How do you bring a girl to someone who's not here anymore?"

She took a deep breath starting to shake her head and repeating 'no' several times.
I smiled again.
"I'm not selfish.. I'm giving you to him even though I could keep you myself. I love him." I said not even looking at her.
Then my eyes met hers.

"You're pretty you know that?"
Her sobs went a little more quiet because she was getting tired of all that crying and I guess she didn't see a point in crying anymore. I reached my hand out again and brushed my thumb gently through her lips. She closed her eyes holding back a sob. I leaned down and ever so softly pressed her lips to mine.

I was shocked when she responded to my kiss. Then I deepened it. Maybe she was thinking that I wouldn't do anything to her if she kissed me back.

I brushed my hand through her hair while still kissing her. Then I pulled back and got on top of her reconnecting our lips again. I started getting excited and my breathing quickened as well as hers then I grabbed her throat and gently pressed it. Still kissing her I started adding pressure to her throat.
"You like that?" I asked her panting.

She was on panic mode again.
"Y-yes. Yes I like it.." she said alarmed.
I pursed my lips together.
"Lie." I'm disappointed. I added even more pressure to her neck until she started struggling. I closed my eyes avoiding the sight in front of me.

Silence again.