Hide & Seek | PJM | (On HIATUS)

Chapter 14

The same thing went on a few weeks already. I would always find her in my room on my bed.

Maybe it's a good thing that I gave her the key. But the annoyance is unreal. She's whining and whining. Asking too many questions. Always looking to what I eat or how much water I drink. I know she's a doctor but first of all she's not my mother nor a health specialist. Either way, her days are counted. Unless I'll have a change of heart.

"My boyfriend still doesn't know.. Why are we still doing this.."

Again with the same bullshit.
"If you're so unhappy, princess, just quit. You're starting to bore me anyway." She frowns at me again.
"So you don't want to be with me anymore? Why? Did I do something."

Still sitting on my couch and scrolling through my phone I replied.
"You did."
"What? What did I do?"

I sighed and put down my phone now giving all of my attention to her.
"Remember when I was still at the centre?"
She nodded her head.
"You were so disgusted with me. I'll never forget that look you give all your patients: looking down on them, seeing no hope in them, me. When I told you that I would come to visit with the fucking tea and when I brushed my hand against yours, fucking brushed, meaning I barely even touched you.. You immediately pulled away. Disgust is all I saw. Nevertheless, I always had an interest in you. But now.. You're like everyone else. I see absolutely nothing in you that would fascinate me."

I saw a glint of tears quietly slipping away down her cheeks.
"It is what it is, darling. I'm not willing to continue our... Whatever that was happening between us." I said motioning my hand between us.

"Asshole." I heard her whisper.
"What? Repeat that, I dare you."
She snapped looking right through me.

"I knew you were fucked in the head, I knew you never healed! You're just a little spoiled young boy who knows nothing and just wants to show off!! I don't know what happened that got you so fucked up but honestly I don't care! You're nothing to me."

I smirked. I guess that day came sooner than I expected.

"Great." Is all I replied before watching her stomp to the other room and slam the door shut.

My fucking door.

I slowly walked to the room she was in and softly knocked on the door.
"Baby, come out." I heard shuffling.
"Go away, Jimin. I'm mad at you."
She replied in her crying voice. I sighed.
"I know, baby. But you did upset me. Look, I'm sorry, just let me in. After all it's my house, isn't it?"

I heard her scoff nearing the door when she opened it. I slowly walked in. Cornering her to the sofa when she was backing away.
Her legs finally hit the sofa and she stopped while I was still nearing her when our bodies were centimeters away.

My hand ran through her hair, then gently cupped her cheek while softly running my thumb over her delicate skin. I searched her eyes.

And saw nothing that I would want.

My hand backed away from her cheek when suddenly landing with so much force in the same place I caressed a while ago.
Her head turned from the hard slap when she grabbed her cheek crying more.

I grabbed her hair roughly and turned her head to me.
She couldn't look me in the eyes.
"I warned you. I said don't test me. Now it's all your fault you're getting punished."

She sobbed loudly. I pulled at her hair.
"Shut the fuck up! Or I'll fucking end you right here, right now."
"I-I--" she stuttered.
I let go of her hair and grabbed her jaw roughly squeezing it when suddenly clashing my lips to hers aggressively, moving them against hers fast, with anger and lust.

What is wrong with me?
Why am I like this?

I pulled away whispering.
"I'm sorry."
She didn't reply. And I wasn't expecting it. I let go of her completely, turning away and walking off.
"It's up to you, doll. You won't last with me. Just sayin'"

I heard her taking a deep breath in getting ready to speak.
"I wanna go home." She spoke ever so softly, choking at her own words.

That sentence made me stop in my tracks. I turned to her frowning with confusion.
"What is home?" I asked looking straight at her like a completely different person with a glimpse of sadness.

Confusion was written all over her face while she was looking at me with furrowed brows hugging her own shaking body.
"W-what?"

I lazily waved my hand erasing any emotion I had seconds ago.

"It's a joke." I said in monotone voice. Turning away from her once again leaving her in the room.

I heard her sob once again as I sat on my couch.
What am I gonna do? I can't continue this anymore. She wants to go home. Home. What is home?