My Past and Present

Say it to me

He kiss me passionately I feel myself melt
When I really love the way he kiss me I love the way he love me maybe he does
"Fred"
"Rose please be with me please come back to me please be my wife to be"
"Fred it's not easy"
"I know Dear let's go back in first hope until in the end you'll say yes like you promise on me"
"Fred"
I already speechless
"Fred"
"Shhhh don't call me like that it makes me old lol you can call me My dear okay"
"But"
"Please?"
"Umm okay Dear"
I feel like awkward I feel like something bother on me
"Dear are you okay?"
"Yes ummm yeah"
I give a lil space on him and just leave to the room
I'm now in the living room just sitting on the couch I think again to my family on the other space makes me miss them so much when I remember about the cube I just think and I try to get the cube  already change the color it sucks it's new for me
When I move of it the lights comes out and it's sign that I can home but if I step on the light I will leave my love of my life
And maybe this is the last time that I saw my ex
I'm so confused really confused I need to think my mind tells to home my heart tells to him
After a few minutes I already get the decision
I will stay here whenever my decision is right I hope so
I am in tears but I can't why I can't move on?
I love him but I hate him I don't understand!
Makes me so sad and really confused!
"Rose"
He call my name when I see his eyes makes me so sad he is in tears
"What you doin here again?"
I ask him with stuttering and just wipe my tears when I'm facing him
"Are you plan to leave?"
"Why you ask that?"
"I'm sorry because of me I make you hurt it's all my fault"
"No it's okay it's my decision"
When I try to go outside he hold my left arm
But he don't have any words to come out
I just the one to say
"I'm going outside just to feel the presence of mind"
And he already put my arm down and I directly go outside in tears