Waking the fallen ~completed~

Heartbreaker

Matt's point of view

I need to tell someone. I can't keep this to myself.

We arrive at the studio. God, I'm glad I'm back. We get out the car and I pick Sid up and I start running towards the door.

"Put me down you monster!" She starts giggling.

We walk in.

"Speak of the devil. Here he is himself and his angel." Brian says.

Does he remember? One year we dressed up as me being the devil and her being an angel.

"Yep, that's us alright." We all laugh.

Larry walks in.

"Enough chatting. I need you guys to get to work. Recording room now."

We all ran into the room. Oh microphone, I've missed you."

"So, we had just started recording Dear God, right?" I ask Larry.

"Yep. Let's start from there."

This was an old song I wrote when I was 20. I always told Val that this song was hers. But in all reality, it was about my first love. Sidni. She went off the deep end started doing drugs, I used to see scars on her arms and worst of all. She cheated on me. I was devistated. She was a heartbreaker. Then I met Val.

"Matt? Were recording in 3....2....1..."

We started recording for the next 3 hours. Sidni looked like a kid in a candy shop. She was very happy. Recording went smooth except for the fact that I realized the songs were about Sid. Not Val.

Finally, we've finished recording.

"Do you need a ride home Matt? If not I'm leaving." Sid asks.

"Wait, I need you to sing a part for a song for me."

The guys look at me. I glare at them and the get back in the room.

"Alright, what song?"

"The Art of the Subconscious Illusion."

"I don't know if I can do the screaming part."

"Trust me, you can." I said. Sid was the original singer of that song. How could she forget?

We walk into the room. We get to her part and she's a natural. I see her smiling after doing her part.

"Good job, man. Or should I sat wo-man?" Jimmy laughs.

" Thanks Jim. Anyways, I've had fun with you guys. Im really tired. Am I bringing you home or not?"

"No, Jimmy and Brian can."

"Alright, bye guys."

She all hugs us goodbye. I hold on a little too long and quickly release. Then she walks out. I feel all of the guys staring at me.

"Why the fuck are you staring at me like that?"

"Matt, that is fucking Sidni Lee Casen. Your first fucking love." Jimmy says.

"Don't you think I've figured that out?" I start to tear up.

"It took me years to get over her and now she's back? I thought I lost her." I look at my hands and bury my face in them. I let all my tears loose. The guys stare at me. They don't know what to do so they walk out. A few minutes later i clean myself up and go to Jimmy's car. I get in.

"Jim, what do I do? Do I tell her?"

"No, we will see if she does."

What if she doesn't. That will hurt. I thought she was going to be my forever. She was my other half. But when I saw her with another guy, I told her to forget me. Fuck, what if she listened. God, I'm stupid. What if the things I've held onto for years mean nothing to her? You know what fuck this.

"Hey Jim, lets go to the bar."

We get to the bar and I do shot after shot and beer after beer. I black out.

I wake up in the morning. And guess who the fuck is in my arms.