Waking the fallen ~completed~

Val?

Sidni's point of view

As I leave the studio I feel weird. Especially after I sang that song. I want to go to the bar, maybe I should ask the guys. As I walk in all I can hear is Jimmy yelling at Matt.

"Matt, this is fucking Sidni Lee Casen. Your first fucking love." Jimmy says.

I freeze, fuck. It is Matt. How could I forget?

"Don't you think I've figured that out?" He says. He sounds like he is about to cry.

"It took me years to get over her and now she's back? I thought I lost her." Then all I can hear are his muffled cries.

I run out. I get in my car and speed to the bar. How did I not realize it before. I knew he was in a band. How did I not realize that I was listening to my loves voice? I'm an idiot. I arrive at the bar and sit down. I order beer after beer. I began thinking about why I left him. I was involved in the wrong crowd. I was V apart of this motorcycle gang. I did drugs an such. Then, I was threatened by the leader. If I didn't leave Matt, he would kill him. So I did. I cheated on Matt with the leader. I was then the gang slave. You can about guess what I was put through. I drank my sorrows everynight so I could forget him. I finally did. Then I started going to college without the gang knowing. When I graduated, I ran away. They finally gave up looking for me. The leader knew where I was. He sent me a letter letting me know they weren't mad. So. How did I find my way back to Matt?

"Another round, please." I ask the bartender. I look over my shoulder and Matt and Jimmy are drinking. I walk over there.

"May I join?"

"Damn, Sidni. How much have you drank?" Matt asks.

"Pfft....not that much."

"Alright, sure you can join us." Jimmy says.

The waiter came with my shots and the rest of the night was a blur. Somehow I made it home. When I wake up I feel arms around me. I flip out and jump up.

"What the fuck Matt?" I ask.

"What's wrong Val?"

He looks up and sees that I'm not Val.

"What the fuck...." he starts crying.

"Oh Matt, I'm sorry." I go and lay back down hug him. I try to comfort him. He then falls back asleep. He is adorable when he sleeps. I get up. What the hell happened? Oh wait, I know. When we were leaving the bar I took him with me. I didn't want him to be alone. He was fucked up and crying last night. So I brought him home and we both slept. I didn't expect to be in his arms.

I go shower and change. I put on shorts and a sports bra and called it good. I went down stairs and made breakfast. When I was done I went to go wake up Matt.

"Hey sleepyhead, its noon. Do you want some brunch?"

He rolls over and smiles.

"Are there pancakes?" He asks.

"Duh." He gets out of bed.

"If you need to shower I have old clothes from my brother if you want."

He nodded and went to shower. When I came back he was out of the shower. So when I gave him his clothes my eyes were closed and I ran out. I heard him laughing.

"Thanks for the clothes and breakfast."

"No problem." I say while stuffing my face. He then helped himself to a cup of coffee and sat right next to me.

The only reason I made pancakes was that he always ate them when he came over when we were younger.

"So." He asks. "What are we doing today?"

"Uh, what?"

"I have to repay you for everything. So, were going shopping and then me and the guys are going to take you out for dinner."

"Why did you ask me when you have my whole day planned out?" We both start laughing. I can't catch my breath and then I choke on a pancake. He laughs harder as I'm dying. I finally stopped.

"Fuck you, that was not funny. I could've died." I say trying to be mad. But then he smiles. Fuck those dimples.

"Oh whatever, I could've saved you. Now go get ready. I know girls take at least 4 hours to get ready."

I glare at him.

"I have a xbox. Go play."

He jumps up and I mumble "child" under my breath.

As I go upstairs and walk into my room I start crying. How could I have left him with no explaination. How? How could I hurt him like that? I love him still. But I can't bring myself to get back together with him. I hurt him.