Waking the fallen ~completed~

Mellow

Sidni's point of view

I pull back. Matt is bug eyed.

"Sid?"

"I'm sorry. I fucked up. I'll just tell the guys that I can't have them comeover tonight. You can leave. I understand that you don't want to s..." He cut me off.

"I've missed you." He gets up and pulls me into a hug and kisses my head. He sits down on the bed. I follow and sit next to him.

"I understood what you meant by that kiss. But I'm still not over Val. Can we just keep it at a friend level and I'll tell you when I'm ready for us?" He asks.

"Of course Matt. I'm sorry. I'm selfish." I look down and I'm mad at myself. I can't believe I did that. We then talk for hours about what has gone on for the past 8 years since we broke up at 18.

It was a nice talk. We needed to have it. We talk about how his music has helped both of us with our depression.

"Who knew you had always been with me. I listened to your music when I was stressed or having a bad day. Hell. I listened to it 24/7." I laugh.

"How did you not know it was the guys and I?" He asks.

"Well remember when you saw me with the leader, Joey? You told me to forget you. So, I did. The pain was too much to know that I lost you. I was drinking every night and doing about every drug I could find and somehow I went to school." I laugh. "But Matt, I never told you why I had to do that. He...he said he would kill you and I couldn't let that happen. I went through so many beatings for you, I went through so much to keep you safe. At the time I didn't realize why I went through this. But when you cane back I realized why." I explain. I start to cry. He is in shock.

"All those years you went through that....was cause of me? Why didn't you tell me? You know what? It doesnt matter. I want to thank you. All those years the guys and I called you a whore and a slut for what you did. Now I feel bad. You went through so much to keep me safe. I know this may sound cliche but Sid. Look at me." I look up. " I promise to keep you out of harm. I promise that you will always be safe and I promise you that I will always love you." He says as he starts to cry. "I can't believe it." He cries as he holds me.

"Matt?" I say.

"Yes Sid?" He lets go of me so he can look at me

"How can you let me back in your life after all I've put you through?" I ask shaking.

"Cause Sid, true love finds a way." He says and pulls me back and kisses my head.

"I love you Sid."

"I love you more Matt"

"Lets go. I heard the guys pull up." He says as he grabs my hand and brings me downstairs. Jimmy walks in.

"LETS GET THIS PARTY STARTED!!"He yells.

"YEAA!" I say.

"I'm glad Sid is back. I have a yelling buddy now." He says as we all start laughing.

I make the guys dinner as they go into the game room. I hear Matt cussing at his game cause the bad storm knocked the power on and off again. The guys do the same.

"Dinner's ready!!" I yell. In less than two seconds the guys all come running in. They all get their food and we all go back into the game room.

"Where's the xbox controller?" I ask.

"Why Sid? You can't play." Brian says while laughing.

"I've been single for the past 8 years. Trust me. I've had free time."

As I play the game the guys are watching me and they're amazed.

"I think we've finally found someone better than Matt." Jimmy says.

"Fuck no. Its on bubble." Matt says grabbing the controller. "Whoever kills the most in 15 minutes wins."

"Okay mellow." I say laughing. I called Matt mellow because he went through the white face phase. I because im too lazy to say marshmellow.

"Oh my goodness. I forgot that his nickname was mellow." Johnny chuckles.

"Fuck off." Matt pissily said.

Whenever 15 minutes passed, I had the most kills. Matt didn't believe it. So we played the game for a few more hours. I won many more times. He only won once when he said.

"Ha. I won Bubble."

"Only cause I didn't want to hurt you ego mellow."

"Alright, thats it." He storms out.

We all look at eachother. Then Brian comes to sit next to me and we continue playing the game as Jimmy, Zack and Johnny go get Matt.

The power goes out.

"Fuck. I didn't realize the storm was that bad." I tell Brian as I get up.

I go to look for Matt. He's no where to be found. Then all of a sudden I see these dark figures in the hall. They're coming closer. I freak out and I go to find Brian. He's no where to be found. I run upstairs and into my room and on my bed. The gang is here. Fuck. The closet door creaks open. I freak out. Then I'm takled on my back.

"Get the fuck off of me!" I yell as I punch the figure in the nose.

"Aww. Fuck Sid. Its me Jimmy."

"Oh no...I'm soo sorryy....it's just...I thought it was the gang....." I start to shake and cry as the memories flood back into my mind. I try to get up.

"Im sorry Sid. It was just a joke."

I stand up and look at Jim.

"It's okay." I say as the lights come on. Then I see Jimmy is bleeding. Then I look at my hand, his blood is on it.

"Oh shit, Jimmy. I'm so sorry."

He goes to fix his nose. I'm a monster. It reminds me of the old me who did this to fun. My vision begins to blur. I black out. I fall back onto my bed.

"SIDNI!!" Is the last thing I hear as Jimmy rushes to me.

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Hey guys. Sorry I didn't update sooner. This was a challenging chapter to write cause I didn't know what to do. Anyways. Thanks for reading!