Lost

To a friend of mine

My intent was never to lead you on.

We were friends... so that's how I treated you.

Nothing more.

How did we get here?

I never made a move.

I know I'm not ready and so do you.

Mutual "friends" try to push us together

Like two puzzle pieces that don't quite fit.

How did things get this confusing?

I need help.

I don't know what to do.

What do you do when all you hear is the polyphonic tune of "yay"

And the only "nay" stumbles out of your own uncertain and confused lips?

I really don't want to hurt you.

Someone please help me.

I am so lost.

I honestly do not want to hurt you

But I don't know what to say because my throat is where explanations go to die...

Closed casket funeral.

"Here lies the voice of a confused and unsure man"

And beside it lies an old friendship.

                                                                                         -J.M.