Lost

Habit

Habits are hard to break

Because they are practiced action.

Sort of ritualistic.

Prime examples of this are

When I would steal quick glances in your direction, or

When I would gravitate towards you when walking, or

When I would block everything out to listen to you talking.

Jokes that weren't really funny were hilarious coming out of your lips

And I found myself laughing every time.

I did it so much that it would just sort of start to happen on its own and

Often times I would catch myself doing these things and

Try to hold myself back from doing them because

I knew the only reward I'd receive was heartache but

It never really worked.

It never really stopped because

It had become habit.

                                                                                               -J.M.